Thankful Thursday: words

“Many ignore what they don’t want to deal with. Ignoring doesn’t change things. It doesn’t make them go away.”

EGYPT-THEGOODVIBE.CO

I’ve been trying to ignore something since October 2022 and it just won’t go away.

The ability to say what I need to say escapes me. When I try to verbalize my feelings I either: a. sound like a push-over dribbling idiot or b. go full out post apocalyptic nuclear. There’s no coming back from that. This is not a new thing. I’ve always been this way. I’m working on this. Good progress is slow progress.

So, I just don’t say anything. When you go nuclear and say all those things; yes, you can apologize and seek forgiveness but they are always there. Under the surface. Waiting for the right moment to do an encore. And inevitably they do.

Words, oh the words. I write. Writing helps me say what I need to say. In typical me fashion, I wrote a letter. Saying some of what I needed to say without going nuclear.

What to do with said letter? Pray. So, that’s what I did. This morning, I woke up (reluctantly because of the time change) but feeling it my heart that mailing said letter was the right thing to do.

Because I can’t say what I need to say when it needs said, I made a copy of all the poems I’d written about this issue. To the tune of $3.00 worth of postage.

Trust God. His timing isn’t our timing. Perhaps mailing said letter (with poetry) will give new light to an old problem.

God’s got this. He always has.

Thankful Thursday: 2-15-24