Not my home

I sit here staring at a computer screen;

this world is not my home. 

Traffic flows past my window;

this world is not my home. 

I flip over to read the headlines: body shaming, violence, natural disasters; 

this world is not my home. 

There’s an emptiness inside me that burns;

this world is not my home. 

Pour water on that fire. Yet the embers smolder. 

Get over yourself, build a home. 

At times, I feel like an unwelcome guest. A pest.

How many times have I tried to make this world my home?

Do this! Don’t do that! Don’t be a brat. You’re making this harder than it needs to be. 

You are home. 

If you would just ——,

this would be the perfect home. 

Make yourself fit into this delicate box.

See! You fit! Eureka! You’re home. 

How many times have I tried;

to make this world my home?

There’s a yearning. Wheels turning. A deep need, to find a place where I belong.

Yet, this world is not my home. 

The stars. The moon. The vast beyond, beckon me; to a great unknown,

that might be my home?

A heavenly place. A sacred space.

My forever home?

Microwave cup Brownies: Autumn Bates

1/2 of a banana or 1/3 to 1/2 cup pumpkin purée (depending on your taste, I used 1/2 cup pumpkin purée)

1 egg 

Splash of vanilla extract 

2 scoups chocolate protein powder 

1 teaspoon cocoa powder

2 tablespoons almond flower

1/2 teaspoon baking powder 

Microwave until done. Could take up to 4 minutes, depending on microwave strength. 

For the topping pictured; 

3 tablespoons plain Greek yogurt

1 tablespoon peanut butter

Mix the 2 until well blended

Added 1 teaspoon chia seeds 

A few more chocolate chips

This started out as dessert. Couldn’t eat it all so it became breakfast.

Lost Past; A Star Trek Story

Paramount Global owns the Star Trek franchise. This is a piece of fan fiction based on Star Trek the Next Generation.

Distress 

    Picard was sitting in his office when his door chimed. “Come.” It was Data.

    “What do you have for me?”

    “Nothing sir.”

    “Nothing,” he motioned for Data to sit. “Explain.” 

    “The Jormungad’s computer system is like the Enterprise. It will tell you automatically who accessed the computer system and when. According to the logs, the HaBlich deleted the astrological charts. I would theorize it was an accident. They were unaware of what they were doing?” Data was silent for a moment. “Captain, I brought something back with us from the HaBlich planet.”

    “What?” Picard sat straighter in his chair.

    “Come with me sir.” Picard followed Data to his quarters. In the corner of the room standing up against the wall was a large golden slab. Lying on Data’s bed was the gelatinous mass from the cage. 

    “Data, what is that?” Picard was shocked. “Do you know the harm this could do to my ship?”

    “It is not a what,” Data never took his eyes from the mass. “It is a who. A person. And it will do this ship more harm if we did not intervene.”

    “Captain,” Wil’s voice boomed over his communicator.

    “Yes.”

    “We are receiving a distress call from the HaBlich planet.”

    “On my way.”

    He and Data entered the bridge, “report!” He ordered.

    Geordi’s voice came over the intercom. “Sir, I have the engines in full reverse. We are still moving forward.”

    The view screen came into focus. The HaBlich princess was sending out a distress call to anyone that could hear her. The image was distorted. “Help us. Our planet is being destroyed.”

    “This is Captain Jean-Luc,”

    “Do not try sir.” Worf growled.

    “We cannot get through the atmospheric interference.” Data responded. 

    There is more to the message. I am attempting to clean it up.” Data reported. The Princess voice filled the bridge, “Enterprise; if you get this message, Data.” The image shook. The Princess fell. It was obvious she was struggling to get the message out. “My nightmares are coming true.” 

    “That is all of the message, sir.” Data reported.

    “Mr. Crusher, you are excused.” Picard ordered. Wesley promptly left the bridge. Westerfield sat in his chair.

    “What does that mean Data?” He turned around to face Picard.

    “The book I gave her was a dictionary of geologic terms. She told me she was having nightmares about her planet being torn apart by forces she was unfamiliar with. She said they had never happened on her planet in its recorded history. She had no names to call the events in her dreams.”

    “Her nightmares are coming true.” Picard restated.

    “Would it have anything to do with what you took from the planet?” 

    “It would have happened anyway sir. You read the Sheno’s history, sir. It can be a lot worse. If geologic upheaval is all they experience, they will be lucky.”

    “What did you bring aboard the Enterprise, Data?” Westerfield hissed.

    “Your mistake. And I left a present in your quarters.”

    “You went into my quarters?” Westerfield jumped out of his chair.

    “Do not worry. I just dropped something off. With the caliber of your personality, you will get great satisfaction out of it.” Westerfield backed slowly off the bridge. “Oh Admiral, every time you look at that. Imagine what it would look like as a coffin.” Westerfield tripped over the ramp leading off the bridge. He stood back up, scurrying out the door.

    “You scared the wits out of him.” Deanna reported. 

    “He does not comprehend the meaning of fear, yet.”

Love is

Love is a mosquito buzzing around your head.

Love is a concept, someone once dared. 

Love is lost. 

Love itself is a cost. 

Love is empty. 

Love? Simply?

Love is cruel. 

Love will kick you like a stubborn old mule. 

Love is an idea, written about in books, poems, songs, movies sold. 

Love has been theorized with words, untold. 

Love is fleeting.

Love is a chance meeting?

Love will leave you wrung out. Spent!

Love; there logic went!

Love; we want it. Need it!

Love will screw you while you try to achieve it. 

Love is a dull ache that won’t go away. 

Love – that’s all I can say. 

Monday Poetry Prompt: Falling in Love | Living Poetry

Lost Past; A Star Trek Story

Paramount Global owns the Star Trek franchise. This is a piece of fan fiction based on Star Trek the Next Generation.

Remembrance

   When the group materialized on the transporter pad, Westerfield said, “Now do you understand why it is so important for the Federation to befriend these people? They are amazing.” He giggled. Almost giddy.

    “Westerfield, did we reach the objective of our mission?” Picard scolded.

    Data stepped into the transporter room as Westerfield spoke. “Yes, the Emperor assured me that everyone was fine,” grinning from ear to ear. 

    “He did?” Picard frowned.

    “Yes, now let’s go home.”

    The Enterprise jerked into motion. Picard tapped his communicator, “what’s going on up there?”

    “We don’t know,” Wil responded.

    Picard tapped his communicator again. “Senior staff to the bridge.” Everyone rushed out of the transporter room, returning to their stations. 

    “Talk to me.” Picard barked.

    “It seemed the moment I got confirmation that everyone was safely back on board the Enterprise, we started moving.” Wil reported.

    “Geordi, what’s going on down there?”

    “We are not sure yet. We haven’t engaged the warp drive.” 

    “We are moving at warp 7,” Data reported. “The Jormungad is in tow.”

    “Do we have a tractor beam on the Jormungad?” Wil asked.

    “No sir.” Worf answered. “The Jormungad is being pulled with us.”

    “Great. Now where are we going?” Picard asked.

    Westerfield shook his head almost in panic. “I have no idea.”

    “We are bing pulled away from the HaBlich; however, our direction does not take us to Earth.” Data turned around in his chair watching the expressions of all his friends.

    Home. Home. Data heard repeated in his head. Home

    “What is it Mr. Data?” Picard asked, noticing the slight change in his expression.

    “Home sir. We are going home.”

    “Where is home?” Westerfield snapped.

    “I have no idea.” Data turned away from him after he answered.

    “Go over to the Jormungad, see if its star charts can help us.” Picard sighed.

    “Yes sir.” Data left.

Inconvenience 

I never knew what an inconvenience was.

Watching. Listening. Hanging from the wall.  “Inconvenience,” there it is again. What is that? Day comes. Day goes. Night comes. Night goes. People in. People out. Though at night, the flow is much lighter. Day comes. Day goes. 

People talk. A LOT! They talk about the weather mostly. Movies. Books. News. Games. I’m learning there is a difference between games. There are games people physically play. With their bodies. And games they play with just their fingers. Two people spent 5 hours talking about a game of chess. They went into extreme detail. I was able to do a fairly good job playing based on just their conversation. It’s hard for me to know if it was a battle of wits. Comparing notes. Or ‘one upping’ each other. A third person sat down and sighed, “you 2 are exhausting.” 

Then there are other conversations. Liquid filled conversations. Tears? I’m learning. End of life. Final decision conversations. 

“How are we going to pay for all of this?” 

“Dad never wanted to be here?” 

“Help me! I can’t do this by myself.”

“David, I’m sorry. Your mom will not live out the night.” 

Anguish. Pain. Desperate conversations. “HOW COULD THEY LEAVE ME?”

Then, there are confusing conversations. Inconveniences. “There are other places I want to be.” 

“Talk about dramatic! She’s a hypochondriac. This is all for show!” 

“CAN WE GO HOME NOW?” 

“We’ll be here past midnight!” 

“This is not how I wanted to spend my day.”

“I’m getting married in 3 weeks. Everything is paid for. Who’s going to walk me down the aisle? What am I going to tell the guests? Dad decided to up and die before the biggest day of my life.”

These are inconvenient? Is another human life that unimportant? I’m learning. 

Lost Past; A Star Trek Story

Paramount Global owns the Star Trek franchise. This is a piece of fan fiction based on Star Trek the Next Generation.

MOVE!

    “Data, what is this?” Deanna asked after everyone had left.

    “I am afraid to say what I think. That would make this real and,” he drew a sharp breath through his teeth. “I do not want it to be real.” He sat down toward the middle of the mass.

    Deanna sat down toward what might have been the head of the mass. 

    Data looked up, a Sparrow was sitting; in to what look like to Deanna, thin air. “Is Jo in orbit, my prince?” 

    Deanna looked at Data, they both looked at the bird. 

    In unison they said, “what?”

    Then it hit Data what Jo was, “yes.” He answered with caution.

    The sparrow flew away.

    Deanna looked at him with shock but didn’t have the courage to speak about the sparrow. She looked down at the mass. “Whatever it is. It is alive. But barely.”

    After several hours Princess Sera returned. “Data, please. Get her out of here.”

    “Her?” Deanna questioned.

    “Yes, her.” Your comrade has returned with the bodies of our dead. He brought a shuttlecraft. Now is the perfect time for you to get her out of here.”

    “How would I do that?” Data asked in frustration.

    Worf appeared from behind the princess. “I know with the strength the two of you have, you can move her.”

    “It is not the strength aspect of moving her. It is the solidity aspect. She is not a solid object.”

    Princess Sera walked over to a control panel. The slab detached from the floor.

    “Okay,” Deanna observed, “where is the shuttlecraft?”

    “Right outside the doors,” Worf answered.

    Deanna moved out of the way. Data and Worf tried to move the slab across the floor. With a strained combined effort, they were only able to move the slab 3 inches. Deanna rounded a corner with a cart.

    “How are we going to do this?” Data asked to himself more than to his friends around him. “Pandora, if you are still here, we could sure use your help.” A monkey grunted as it stepped from behind Worf and into the room. They watched as the monkey jumped up onto the control panel and started randomly pushing buttons. It hooted and barked as soft noises emanated from the control panel. The monkey hooted wildly as the slab began to levitate. Worf slid the cart under it. 

      To Deanna’s shock, the weight of the slab didn’t break the cart. How was that possible? Worf and Data couldn’t move it. Its weight has to be tremendous.

      When they made it to the door, the gelatin mass began to sizzle from the heat of the sun. Sera stopped them. “Here,” she took her cape off. “Cover her up.” They were able to load her on the shuttle craft. Once loaded, Sera spoke, “we have made a terrible mistake. My people, I know will pay for this mistake dearly.” Data departed in the shuttlecraft.

    Deanna, Worf and Sera rejoined the rest of the group. “Captain,” Sera shook his hand. “Thank you for returning our dead to us. I hope that if our paths cross again, it will not be a sad event.”

    “Thank you for your hospitality.” Picard bowed.

    They were transported back to the Enterprise.

    The Emperor looked at his daughter, “you gave her to him didn’t you?”

    “Yes, I did. I will do whatever I have to in order for my planet to survive. Even if it means disobeying you.”