Testimony Tuesday

Christmas Sucks!

According to the National Retail Federation (NRF), the average American is expected to spend around $902 on Christmas this year 2024. Google AI search results. This figure is on the low end of all the numbers I ran across. The lowest was $50.00, to the highest being $3,000. Living in a highly commercialized, capitalist society. Christmas is about presents. The value of your worth is based on the money spent on your present. This is reinforced even in the shows we watch. There is an episode of The Big Bang Theory where Penny gets Sheldon a present. He suspected she’d buy him one. Not knowing what she would get him, he bought a number of presents equal to the value he estimated she might spend. Sounds about right? 

As a loved one, we want to get our people things that are meaningful. That says, ‘we pay attention to you. We listen to you. We know your likes and dislikes.’

Years ago, I hated Christmas. You know that person: Christmas music SUCKS. Retail SUCKS! They start putting Christmas items out in July now. CHRISTMAS SUCKS! Not for the love of Christmas but to get your money. Remember: capitalism. 

Celebrating our human birthdays, we tick off the years leading to the end of our mortal lives here on earth. Each year is one year closer to the end. Celebrating the birth of Christ is so different. If we let it, we are re-energized with the Spirit of Christmas. It’s a warm, joyful feeling. It doesn’t change the world outside. It changes the heart inside. It changes the way we view everything, if we let it. However, we can slam the door in the face of Christmas. 

We often view Jesus as our Christian present. Our gift from God. It goes so much deeper than that. It’s taken me a long time to understand that Christmas truly is a feeling. A renewing of the spirit. A fresh start. A rebirth. This gift we have been given changes you from the inside. And this Spirit is perhaps it strongest at Christmas. Have you been paying attention to your fellow humans? Stress of capitalism aside, most people seem happier. They are kinder. This may not be the case when you want to throat punch your fellow shopper in line at Wal-Mart because they took the last bag of Doritos. On a whole people seem different. And it’s a difference you can sense at Christmas. 

Stress, anxiety, depression, loneliness, anger, a multitude of real issues weigh us down. And makes us slam the door shut on the Spirit that is Christmas. I am in no way making light of these very real, personal responses. I feel them just like you do. The Spirit of Christmas is all around us. A force bigger than anything. Brighter than the sun. Sweeter than honey. Stronger than steel. Can you feel it? Is it tugging at your heart but you can’t define it? Christ is Christmas. Christ is that Spirit. He will not force himself upon you. Leave your door ajar.

“Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude.”

-1 Corinthians 13:4

“Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.”

-Ephesians 4:32

“But love your enemies,and do good, and lend, expecting nothing in return, and your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, for he is kind to the ungrateful and the evil.”

-Luke 6:35

“She opens her mouth with wisdom, and the teaching of kindness is on her tongue.”

-Proverbs 31:26

The Bible

Well

I perhaps took a slower path.

Being one never good at higher math.

~

I found the well marked on the map.

It wasn’t on any app.

~

Just as you described. 

Nestled into a beautiful spot of nature, hide.

~

Familiar with wells, from my childhood you see.

This well you described was better kept than thee.

~

A shiny new bucket on a well preserved chain.

That all to familiar clanking, followed by a gentle slash – leading to the main,

~

event. The coldest cleanest water ever tasted. 

Not a drop to be wasted.

~

I perhaps took the slower path.

Mouth and throat having just received natures bath.

~

The sweetest song ever sung pulled me in for a ride.

I made it to the well. Did you check the other side?

~

Dig Deeper – Lions Mane

*Bois d’ arc aka Lions Mane, A poetic conversation, 2024.

Sunshine Valley

The holidays

     Doing 3 community dinners back to back was exhausting. And Evie couldn’t imagine how Della felt. 

     Thanksgiving and Christmas, Evie reached out to some of her old friends from her past life to help. Few people in Sunshine Valley wanted to give up their holidays with their family to serve others. She, Della, and Dillon (representing the sheriff’s department) chose the day before Thanksgiving and Christmas Eve. People were traveling or just didn’t bother. Povol had asked for volunteers from the shelter that wanted to help. Dillon had worked with the jailer to see if anyone in the county lockup wanted some community time. 

     She had asked at one of their planning meetings if ‘getting people involved, was always this hard’? Simultaneously they both said ‘yes’! Dillon went even farther to explain that in years past, they had just handed out boxed lunches because they couldn’t get enough people to volunteer to do the buffet style that Della was known for. Box lunches worked well during the height of Covid. Dillon had been hoping that since life was getting back to normal, that volunteers would pour forth, but it wasn’t happening. 

    Simon and Rebecca showed up to volunteer. Dillon and Della were amazed. They had never volunteered for both before. It was either or. Dillon tried to take it on faith that they had volunteered for both out of kindness. A nagging thought in the back of his head told him otherwise. 

     Dillon about died at Christmas when a tour bus pulled close to Coal Town and 15 teenagers filed out all wearing letterman jackets. He met Paul and Betty. Paul was a professor and coach at the school Evie had attended. The bus was filled with blankets, clothes, some toys and just random gifts adults might like. It was all he could do not to cry. Even after he found out that the students had to have 25 hours of community service to graduate and these were the stragglers that hadn’t fulfilled their commitment. It didn’t matter. His heart was overflowing. 

     Dillon worked Christmas Day so that the deputies who had small children didn’t have too. Evie spent the day with her dad. The day after Christmas, Dillon and Evie sat on his couch, he on one end facing her. She on the other end facing him. “I can’t believe you got all those volunteers for Christmas.”

     “I don’t know if we can make it happen every year.”

     He smiled, “I understand. I’ll take this one.” A frown filled is face. “Wasn’t it risky reaching back into your past?”

     “I met Paul and Betty through church. Doug never went to church with me. Or attended any church functions. Though Paul worked at the school I attended, I never met him until I started going to the same church.”

     “Thank you. I don’t think we could have done it without them.”

     “It was my pleasure. Oh,” she got up. “I got you something.” She presented him with the beautifully wrapped box. “Merry Christmas.”

     “The box is so purdy, I almost don’t want to open it.” He grinned, “but I’m gonna.” Inside the box was a “boot and glove warmer.”

     She smiled, “every-time you stick your hands or feet into warm articles, you will be reminded how much I love you.”

     He thought to himself, ‘that was the best Christmas present ever. She loved him.’ He knew it. But hearing her say it pushed all the right buttons. 

     All of the jewelry he had seen her wear was simple. Small earrings, unless it was a fun holiday. Cross neckless. A watch. Her engagement ring. But not much more. He had even been asking her dad for gift ideas. It needed to be special. He thought about all their shared childhood memories. Adult Evie was causing him to think and feel things that childhood Evie didn’t know existed. He was sick as he presented her with the small bag. She tore into it with the excitement of a child. Inside was a pair of silver earrings, shaped like a hot air balloon with 2 entwined hearts on the balloon part of the earrings. “Dillon,” she sighed. “They are beautiful.”

     “I love you,” he smiled. “Merry Christmas.”

Where’s Jesus?

The faith group that I worship with, we don’t have a physical church. I need to make sure this is known right off the bat. 

In past years, we have done a Christmas tree contest. An independent judge picks which tree they like the best. This year, we’ve mixed it up. It’s like a treasure hunt. Each individual can post up to 3 pictures of a nativity from the community you live in. One can be your own. And if more than one member lives in the same community, you can’t duplicate your entry. 

When this was written, it was early in the month of December. The 10th to be exact. 

December 7th, which was a Saturday, we drove from the town I live in to a town approximately 2 hours away. 30 minutes of this drive was interstate travel. So no one expects to see a nativity on the side of I75. However, once we left the hum of 75 behind, we started looking for nativities. In this almost 2 hour drive, we counted 3. Yes, you read that right, 3. 

We passed some opulent church buildings. Some simple. Some in between. 

Where’s Jesus?

The comment was made, “it still early”. This statement is true. It is still early in the month of December. People start decorating for Halloween in September. Myself included some years.

I have 2 nativities in my house. One is a Christmas tree ornament and one is under my tree. But if a random person drove past my house, there is nothing that says, ‘there lives a Christian’.  Just a house. If these buildings of worship didn’t have steeples on them, the random passerby wouldn’t know these were supposed to be houses of worship. Just buildings. Is this how churches really want to be seen? Just another building?

Again I ask, where is Jesus?

I attended a church once that skimmed over the birth of Jesus. It wasn’t a big deal. This branch was more focused on the resurrection. The resurrection of Christ is the bedrock of our faith. But I ask again, as I have asked in the past, if Christ had never been born, how could he die to be resurrected? The birth of our Lord and Savior is mighty important, in my honest opinion. How can we brush over that?

This treasure hunt to find a nativity has turned into a scavenger hunt. Where are they? The church directly behind my house has one. But it is in the pastors yard. The pastors yard, that is behind the church. Standing on my carport, I can only see the outline of their nativity. Which tells me that it is for the benefit of the congregation only. 

Only being able to see the outline of the nativity; is this the direction we (as a society) are heading? We can only see the outline of Jesus? A hint? A blur? A dimming light of life?  We can ring a bell so that an angel get’s its wings. We can believe in fairies to bring them back to life. Are we willing to bring Jesus back to life? Am I going to get some clap back over this, an angry retort? “Jesus isn’t dead or dieing!” Then where is he?

On the drive back, we drove a different way home and found 2 more. For a total of 5. 

Where’s Jesus? Are we ashamed of him? Are we too tired to fool with him? Are we too stressed or too busy to worry about a stupid nativity. No one looks at them anyway. It’s a waste of energy and (if you choose to put a spot light on it) a waste of electricity? Or we’ll hide Jesus in the back for only those with a special privilege to view. Hide Jesus under a bushel? Oh no! We’ll hide him in the back yard!

Out of the nativities that we saw; 1 was a business, 1 was a private residence and 1 was a city. 

Is having a nativity an important part of worship? Is it just a symbol and I’m not reading the room correctly? Has this lack of respect always been present but I (for one) didn’t see it until I started looking for it? 

Whether it’s a private question or a public question; where’s Jesus?

In later posts, I will share the 3 nativities I chose.

Sunshine Valley 

Once there was darkness 

     Evie was still on a call when she opened the door for Dillon. She smiled, kissed him on the cheek, before returning to the kitchen. 

     He stood frozen, watchin’ her as (to him) she bounced off. The fabric of her shorts gently movin’ in the opposite direction of her body. In an almost waving motion. ‘Oh, what a view,’ he thought, smilin’. On the little piano was a book; Once there was darkness. He picked it up before sittin’ down in one of the overstuffed chairs. 

     The back of the book read as follows: ‘Once there was Darkness is a story that I have been working on for a long time. My journey to Christianity has been a roller coaster. I tried to pepper this story with Bible verses and religious vibes to help me along my path. This work has gott’en me through a lot. I have had needed but painful experiences in my personal life that have been poured into my characters. I hope you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it.

There are two main characters in this story King Kol and Kessa. Journey along with Kol as God reintroduces him to his past through dreams. In some places you will see a little picture of Chico. This is to help you know that a dream (either asleep or awake) is happening. Sometimes there are dreams within dreams. Get to know Kessa as she helps Kol get back to God. We all need some help along life’s path. Romans 3:23 NKJV “for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.”

I completed all the work myself. If you find any mistakes, I do apologize.’

     ‘We all need some help along life’s path.’ He thought to himself. ‘Amen to that.’

     

     “I’m finished with it if you want to read it.” She sat in the other chair. “Pass it on when you are finished.” 

     “I never considered you for a romance novel reader.”

     “There is some romance in it. I feel like the main focus of the story is human relationships with God.”

     He thought for a minute before speaking, “does this have something to do with the incident at church?”

     That stung a little. She recoiled from the words but said sadly, “maybe.”

    https://www.amazon.com/Once-there-darkness-Jolene-Rice/dp/B0DLT6TDWK

berate

berate

belittle

talk down to

sabotage 

absolute torment

torture

bemoan

revile

cut to the quick

stupid idiot

berate

scold

abuse

defame

condemn 

berate

mock

rage

laughable nonsense 

berate

complain

not good enough

bash

blister

scorch

scold 

ridden down

admonish 

chasten

gaslight

all the negativity 

berate

really, that’s what you think

badger

beat up

thrash

lash out

rail

castigate

lambaste

berate

trash talk

vituperate 

blast

roar against 

slur

hen peck

jaw

nah

stupid

berate

leave me alone

get out of my head 

silence your inner voices

SHUT UP!

LEAVE ME BE!

Sunshine Valley

Reflection

     Dillon had a random Wednesday off. With really, nothing pressin’ that needed to be done. Evie had a full day of appointments. He wandered up to the upper barn and sat with his back up against the weathered aged wood. First making sure not to sit in anything gross. Then stretched out his legs, crossing his ankles, right over left. He watched the cows slowly graze. Every now and then one would let out a gentle moo. 

     The leaves on the trees were almost gone. He could see the tip of the Ledbetter’s chimney from where he was sitting. A gentle hum filled his ears. The pump kicked on to fill the drinking troughs. It did its job, then kicked off. 

     A slight breeze picked up bringing a gentle whiff of something dead? Decaying? Maybe even a cow fart, to his nose. As he sat there he thought about the comment a child made about him, ‘my mom says you should be on t.v. more, you look delicious’. Then when Evie called him ‘hunky sheriff’. Those 2 comments made no sense to him. He didn’t consider himself attractive. There wasn’t a six pack around his waist. No bulging biceps. Most of his life, he was tall and skinny.  Della was forever sending food home with him. Some he ate. Some went to the animals, when he was too tard or stressed to eat. He had heard whispers that smaller men called him a ‘mountain of a man’. Bradley being one. When he looked in the mirror, he always saw that scrawny kid who was afraid of his parents. Maybe he should grow a beard? He stroked his chin. 

     Evie filled his mind as a trickle of smoke came out of the Ledbetter’s chimney. It danced upward toward the sky. Like a snake crawling on the ground. It danced, frequently disappearing when it blended in with the tree bark in the distance. Danced delicately to the horizon and was gone. Come to think of it, had he ever saw smoke out of that chimney before?

     Evie, did she know what she was gettin’ herself into? He was a simple man. With simple wants and needs. So he thought. She had lived the big city life. Could she really be happy livin’ in her small hometown married to a simple sheriff? A farmer/rancher wanna be? Doug was a millionaire. Could she go from eating $1,000 a plate dinners to fast food take out? Who was he kidden’, he hated fast food. Was she a millionaire? Is that why Doug was abusive? Money?

     A curious kid approached him, sniffing of his boots. “Not food.” He softly spoke. As he stuck his hands in his jacket pockets, he felt the peanut butter and jelly sandwich he had made for lunch. The kid jumped as he pulled it out but didn’t leave. He waved the sandwich, still in its bag, at the kid, “now this is food.” He peeled the crust off the bread in small bites. He took a bite before throwing some crust to the kid. It jumped at the movement of his arm. But eagerly came back for the bread. Each time Dillon moved his arm; the kid would bounce backwards. Only to come back for the bread. “Little buddy, how do you feel about goat yoga?” 

     Not havin’ a clue what the noise it heard was, the kid waited for more bread. When the sandwich was gone, Dillon stuck the bag back into his pocket, held up his hands, “all gone. No more food.” The kid looked at him with a blank stare. “Should I give all of you names before Hillbilly Yoga starts?” The kid let out a “baaaa”, before bouncing off. “Maybe not,” he whispered to himself. ‘Hillbilly Yoga, what the hell’? People were going to pay good money to do yoga in a barn full of goats? Would they Tango with the chickens soon? He would draw the line at cow tippin’. He had done a lot of readin’ about it and yes, people did pay money to do goat yoga. 

     Evie was takin’ care of all the details. It amazed him that this excited her. The thought of her excited him. The image of her in her little shorts and t-shirt. The soft fabric of her p.j.s when he held her. The gentle scent of her cologne as it teased his nose. Her smile lit up his mind. It was the first time he really saw just how white her teeth were. It was a Hollywood white. Why? But it wasn’t her teeth he was focused on. It was the softness of her lips. Why again did she have such white teeth? He didn’t. Was that important? His teeth were healthy, according to his dentist but far from ‘white’. He drug his tongue across his teeth, touching each tooth. Was that gonna be an issue?

     He never did ask Bradley how men did this. Here he was, 48. Engaged for the first time to the woman he had loved all his life. Was he stupid? Was this the stuff helpless romantics believed in? Was she the smart one for leaving? Living? Loving someone other than him? Would she be the better lover? Did it matter? Was he the smart one for knowing what he wanted and playing the waiting game? Did it really matter? 

     A male Cardinal landed on the tip of his boot. Most folks took comfort when Cardinal’s came ah callin’. Many believed it was the spirit of a dead relative coming to visit. He thought about his dead relatives. He really didn’t want any of them to come visit him. The Cardinal bobbed its head, as if it was bowing to him, before it flew away.