“Sometimes, all you have to do is walk into the pasture for the bull to know you’re there.” Chico’s Mom
Tag Archives: life
I hate you!
You are the most annoying sound in the world. All I want is to stay all snuggly and warm. Why can’t I stay curled, my thoughts and feelings transformed. My bed is like a trusted friend. That perfect hug. Sleep, the realm of dreams does bend. My bed doesn’t care if I lay like aContinue reading “I hate you!”
Why are you yelling at me?
I see you standing there. Why are you yelling at me? I can’t move. I can barely breathe. Why are you yelling at me? My legs and arms ache from immobilization. Why are you yelling at me? Dust from your rapid steps fill my eyes and nose. Why are you yelling at me? The ropesContinue reading “Why are you yelling at me?”
Screaming
https://youtu.be/V6Xoa1twIt4 Can you hear me? I’m screaming. I scream in the driveway. I scream in the car. I scream at work. I scream on the road. I scream in a crowd. I scream at the grocery. I scream in the parking lot. I have screamed till my throat hurts. Do you hear me? Do youContinue reading “Screaming”
Dare to dream?
Is it okay to dream? Is it “better to have loved and lost, than to never have loved at all?”* Is it okay to dream? About the dreams that will never come to me. They seem just out of reach. Just. There. Just. Those dreams. I feel like “I’m running down a dream that neverContinue reading “Dare to dream?”
The pursuit of happiness
Happy Are you happy? This is not a loaded question; crappy. Defined, the feeling of showing pleasure. This section we can measure. Contentment, what? Those aren’t the same thing. Nope! Let’s depart. Content and happy, they aren’t even relatable. What planet are you from? I want. I see. I need. Dumb! Try being happy whenContinue reading “The pursuit of happiness”
I’m the fool
For a split second. A brief moment in time. I thought. I prayed your apology might be genuine. The call you made. This game will fade. Then I prayed, “God if this is real, lay it on my heart to deal.” But the need, desire isn’t there. Quite to the contraire. Then I get anContinue reading “I’m the fool”
Growing Up
Growing up, did you know the difference? Growing up, did you know the forest was coniferous? No matter where you turned with toxic conditions you would get burned? Growing up, what did you know about mental illness? What did you know about all the sickness? This person was an eccentric, maybe. These people you sawContinue reading “Growing Up”
Testimony Tuesday
Our prayer group does this thing we call ‘Testimony Tuesday’. You can share. Or not. This was one of my testimonies. I freaked out a little. I’m a year older. My body isn’t in great shape; inside or out. I’m single, no children. Who’s going to take care of me as I age? Or helpContinue reading “Testimony Tuesday”
Lead Me.
Dear Lord, I’m standing in the middle of life. Lead me. Which way do I go? Lead me. Will I have enough money when I’m bent and broken? Lead me. Do you have a new job for me? Lead me. Is there a relationship in my future? Lead me. Shall I stay where I am?Continue reading “Lead Me.”