Don’t know what I’m doing, reaching in the dark. Searching the unknown. Never been down this path before. Reaching. Touching nothing. Searching the darkness for anything. A string. A cord. A hand. An idea. Even a spider web. Is there anything in the darkness; reaching out for me? Help me! Guide me! I’m coming undone!Continue reading “Reaching for something”
Tag Archives: struggle
Inconvenience
I never knew what an inconvenience was. Watching. Listening. Hanging from the wall. “Inconvenience,” there it is again. What is that? Day comes. Day goes. Night comes. Night goes. People in. People out. Though at night, the flow is much lighter. Day comes. Day goes. People talk. A LOT! They talk about the weather mostly.Continue reading “Inconvenience “
I WILL use you
I tried my best to beat my thoughts. But they came raging back. I tried my best to cage my thoughts. But they broke through the bars. I tried my best to strangle my thoughts. They gave me false hope. I tried my best to erase my thoughts. They kept feeding me words. I triedContinue reading “I WILL use you”
Screaming
https://youtu.be/V6Xoa1twIt4 Can you hear me? I’m screaming. I scream in the driveway. I scream in the car. I scream at work. I scream on the road. I scream in a crowd. I scream at the grocery. I scream in the parking lot. I have screamed till my throat hurts. Do you hear me? Do youContinue reading “Screaming”
True
“To thine own self to true.” How, when you’re not sure who you are?” “To thine own self to true.” How, when the world fights against you? “To thine own self to true.” And the world will crucify you. Taken from ‘The Reconstruction of Me’. A collection of poems I started in the early 2,000’s.Continue reading “True”
Gratitude in all things
Our pray group does “Monday School” lessons instead of Sunday School. When I was asked to write these, I had to do a tall lot of praying. 1. Because I’m still young in the faith. My knowledge base isn’t very deep. 2. I don’t want to say the wrong things to actually kill someone curiosityContinue reading “Gratitude in all things”
Honor thy parents
Being a Christian isn’t easy. Trying to find that right balance of honoring God with your life but at the same time not pushing others away from being curious about God or Christianity is delicate. I have no desire to tell you your life is a mess when mine is a different mess. I wouldContinue reading “Honor thy parents”
Fighting with God
Genesis 32: 22-32 Your will shall prevail. Oh Lord, this is not easy. You have lifted a vail. This direction makes me queasy. Is this truly the path you wish me to follow? With Jacob you wrestled. Lord, I am terrified. In this sin, I wish not to wallow. I am relying on you toContinue reading “Fighting with God”
Always
Always remember who you are. Always remember where you came from. Always remember the struggle to get you where you’re at in life. Always remember what is important in your life. Always remember what you want to accomplish in your life. Always remember where you want to be in life. Always remember things could getContinue reading “Always”
Fitting In: Stop Trying
You’re not funny. That’s me, big dummy. Stop trying! You’re not a child. What were you thinking? Are you out of your mind? Stop trying! Act your age. That was a disaster. Learn how to gauge. Stop trying! That was so juvenile. They don’t get your style. Stop trying! You’re sense of humor is justContinue reading “Fitting In: Stop Trying”
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