Winter Season

All your fault!

Please be advised ADULT LANGUAGE!

Once at the ER, Oscar told them everything that Chet told him to say and little else. As he was being examined, Esther busied herself writing her statement. It had been a long time since she had written one of them. But like they say; it was like riding a bicycle, once you learn you never forget. It all came back with amazing speed. As Oscar was coming back to the waiting room, she was e-mailing her report to Chet.

“What did they say?” He sat down beside her.

“Pretty much you are right. I have a laceration on the inside of my left nasal cavity. They gave me a script for an antibiotic and as it were, sent me home.”

She put her hand on his thigh rubbing it softly. “This is snowballing.”

“Sweetheart, this is just insurance; incase he tries to claim that either of us pushed him down the steps or that you attacked him. If he is able to get the upper hand, think about what that could do to your teaching career.”

Oscar shuttered. “Until today, I would have told you that it was nothing to worry about, that Oat was just a blow hard nothing more. Now I don’t know.”

“You told me that you didn’t know him. Perhaps this is really who he is?”

Oscar looked shocked at the very suggestion. But then he remembered all the times that Oat had stopped by his house smellin’ of beer.

“Let’s go get your script filled.”

He softly shook his head and she pretty much guided him out the door. He felt drunk. As if he was living in a nightmare.

They sat in the parking lot of the drug store waiting on the pharmacy. “Do you want to go get something to eat?” Esther almost whispered.

“No.” Oscar took a deep breath and leaned his head back against the seat. “What in God’s name did she tell him?”

“From the sounds of it, she is tryin’ to pit the two of you against each other. And it worked. To what end, I don’t know.”

“How could you tell I was getting upset?”

She looked confused, “what?”

“At the house when I was getting mad at Oat and you told me not to get mad; how could you tell?”

“Oh,” she smiled, “your face was becoming flushed and your nostrils were flaring.”

“Why didn’t you want me to sit down?”

“That would have given him the advantage. He would have attacked you sooner.”

Oscar put his hands over his face and let out a long slow sigh, “I can’t believe this.” He jumped as his cellphone rang. It was his mother. He put the call on speaker so Esther could bear witness to this conversation.

“Hi,” was all he said.

“So you had Oat arrested?” She scolded.

“No, I had nothing to do with it.”

“You don’t sound surprised that he was arrested.”

“It was bound to happen someday.”

“You son of a bitch, don’t you care for your brother?” Esther’s eyes got as big as quarters. “That sheriff is supposed to be your friend. Call him and get your brother out of this.”

“No.”

She went on a cussin’ fit that would make a sailor blush and called Oscar everything but a man. “You want him to spend the night in jail like a common criminal?”

“If he deserves it, yes.”

Another cussin’ spree ensued. “He has babies at home to take care of!” She shouted.

“His getting arrested was a direct result of his actions.”

“I always knew you were callous but I had no idea you were so mean. Doesn’t it matter to you that your brother has a criminal record now!?”

“Again, a direct result of his actions.”

Esther was proud of Oscar. He wasn’t losing his temper and he wasn’t sliding into a panic attack.

“Why hasn’t that son of a bitch set bail? I will go get him.”

“I have no idea.”

She went on yet another cussin’ spree.

“May I ask you something?” Oscar questioned.

“What?” She growled.

“What did you tell Oat that had him so mad at me?” There was silence. Oscar looked over at Esther. “He kept going on about me taking everything dad had and leaving y’all with nothing. Where would he get an idea like that? You know as well as I do that when dad died he didn’t have anything.”

Silence. Oscar scoffed, “she hung up.” He showed the phone to Esther. And indeed, she had ended the call.

Esther never said a word. She figured that if he wanted to talk he would. It was obvious that his heart was breaking. He had tried to have a relationship with his family but they were so jealous of him they couldn’t stand it.

Oscar finally spoke, “what do you think she told him?”

“From the conversation with you, I think she told him that you took everything your dad had. He seems to think that your dad bought you the house you live in, paid for your education, bought your SUV, and that you took all of his money to do it with leaving him nothing.”

“Dad didn’t have anything.”

“I understand that. But I doubt that a drunkard did.”

They picked up Oscar’s medicine and left.

Once they had arrived back home, he took her by the hand. “I want to show you something.” He led her to the den and sat down in front of a computer monitor. He then guided her to his lap. “Please don’t be put out with me. I gave myself a Christmas present.” He wiggled the mouse and the monitor came to life. It was a security system. “Camera one is of my front door. Camera two is of my back door. Camera three is on the light pole in front of your house pointed at my house. Camera four is on that same pole pointed at your house.”

“Why didn’t you tell me sooner?”

“I wanted to make sure all of the bugs were worked out of the system before I did.” He rewound the data from today that was saved and they watched as Oat flipped them off, turned, and then fell down the steps. A copy of all the days feed was burnt to a c.d. for Chet.

“I think it’s sweet that you want to protect me.” She finally decided to take his gesture as an act of kindness and not an act of creepiness.

“I was afraid you would think I was being a peeping Tom.”

She stroked his hair. “Thank you.” The c.d. ejected and he put it in a sleeve writing Chet on the cover. “Do you need me to leave?”

“No, that’s the last thing I want.”

Later that night, Chet stopped by. “Just checking on you.”

“Thanks my friend, I’m okay.”

He handed Chet the c.d., “this might be useful.”

“Your mother is livid. She’s mad that the judge hasn’t set bail so she can get her baby out of jail. He’s going to stay there the night.”

Oscar pretty much fell on the couch, “this day has been one massive nightmare.”

Esther handed them both a cup of coffee. “Thanks,” Chet took a deep breath of the steam rolling off the cup. “Your report was amazin’. You have written a good many of them in your life time and it shows.”

“Thanks,” she sat down beside Oscar.

Chet finally sat down as well, “is there anything I can do? Do you need anything?”

“A family that doesn’t suck would be nice.”

Chet and Esther just looked at each other with sympathetic glances.

“What’s next?” Oscar let out a long sigh.

“That’s up to your brother. We’ve covered all your bases. Now it’s time for him to make the next move.” Chet finished his coffee and bid his friends good night.

Blown light bulb

Whoo hoo! Girls trip. My pseudo sister lives about 2 hours and 15 minutes away from me. My bestie (her mom) and I had plans to drive up and spend the day with her. Her dad was already in this town for a meeting.

I’m gonna drive. Which stresses me a little. Several years ago, I had a panic attack driving in a snow storm. And this has kinda morphed into driving in larger cities. The best way to get over this is to just drive. Right?

We had a great day. Even though I missed one of our exits and went 30 minutes out of our way. And a street sweeper tried to run me over. We ate brunch, shopped, ate dinner.

And then….

On the way home is where it all went wrong.

I have a key wad. All of my life I’ve been told not to drive with a key wad hanging off your ignition; it will damage it. My car key slips on and off this key wad. I always put my key wad in the cup holder of the console. No keys. They are not in the driver side door pocket. Or the passenger side door pocket.

They are not in the cubby holes where I keep c.d.s and sunglasses, ink pens and lotion. I dump my purse in the driveway, nope. They aren’t in either glove box. Yes, I have 2 glove boxes. Why? I don’t know.

“You left them hanging in the door.”

This is not out of the realm of possibilities. “No, I don’t think so. I remember double checking that the door was locked and shutting the screen door.”

When we stopped to buy gas, we check under all the seats. Just incase when I went to throw them in the cup holder, I missed and they slid under the seat. Nope.

As I shut my car off at the gas pump, it acted funny. I brushed it off, pumped my gas. The stress of finding my house keys was paramount. ‘What did I do with them?’ I dumped my purse out a second time in the backseat of my car. The answer was still no. No keys.

We get back in the car. The thoughts racing through my mind were; I’ve laid them on top of the car and lost them between my house and my besties. Or someone found them in the driveway and cleaned my house out; taking Chico with them. This rabbit hole is deep. A basement key is part of the wad and my basement was wiped out as well. Told you that rabbit hole was deep.

As I turn the key in the ignition, my car won’t start. Holy sheet. I’m in a town where I know no one. My bestie is with me. Her husband and daughter are miles behind us. Crap!

“You didn’t pump diesel did you?”

For what ever reason, this truck stop had a diesel hose on each pump. “Did I? Sweet Lord I pray not.” I raise up in my seat looking at the pump. “Did I? Sheet!”

I try to start the car again, it’s almost like fuel isn’t getting to the motor. I race the engine a few times. Then decided it’s best to move from the pumps. We circle to the parking area. The car seems to be doing okay. So we chance continuing the drive home, praying all the way. “Dear God please let us make it home.”

On the drive, it hits me. “My house keys are in the snack bag. That’s why I think I put them in my purse.” My bestie can’t reach the snack bag. It is all the way in the back of the car. I am NOT about to stop. So for another hour and 15 minutes; I keep telling myself, ‘your keys are in the snack bag’. For those of you reading that might not know about a snack bag; so that we wouldn’t overspend on junk food, I packed a bag with mostly chips and pretzels. I took a cooler because we took fish for dinner and put some drinks in it.

Once we made it to my besties house, YES. The keys were indeed in the snack bag.

I wasn’t about to shut my car off, what if it doesn’t start back?

When I made it home, I tried restarting my car a couple times and it started right back.

God guided us home.

This morning as I was getting dressed for our fun day; a light bulb blew in my closet.

Mouse vs key

Why will my curser not move?

I have so much work to do.

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Where is my car key?

I just want to leave.

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How will I get all this work done?

My cursor still won’t move.

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What is happening here?

I can’t make any headway.

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When will that clock read 5?

I want my cursor to work. And I need my car key.

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Who will help me find my mouse and my car key?

I can’t start my car with a mouse or use my key to work my computer!

Monday Poetry Prompt: Questions?

Winter Season

Where does it hurt?

Oat turned at the end of the porch and flipped them off, turned to leave and fell down the steps as Oscar slammed the door behind him.

Esther went with him to the bathroom. After he washed his face, “let me see.” She took her finger and gently pushed at his nose from his fore head to the tip of his nose. “Tell me when it hurts.”

“The tip is a little sore.”

Then she went down the right side.

“No.” When she made it half way down the left side of his nose, he flinched in pain.

“Yeah.”

“Your nose isn’t broken. I think he stuck his finger up it.”

Oscar smiled, “all of that and all he did was stick his finger up my nose?”

“Sweetheart, he was drunk.”

Oscar touched the left side of his nose, “yeah that hurts.”

She kissed the tip of his nose. “I’m sorry.”

He hugged her, holding her close. “Thank you so much.”

“I didn’t do anything.”

He looked deep into her eyes, “you did more than you will ever know.”

The doorbell rang and it was Chet. “How are you?”

They all sat in the living room. “Disturbed.” Oscar shook his head.

Esther took a deep breath, “Oscar, I think you really need to considered getting a restraining order on Oat.”

He looked confused, “why would I do that?”

“Please forgive me, but your brother is a piece of work. I have no doubt that he will try to get an EPO on you.”

“He’s spending the night at least in jail.” Chet spoke, “his blood alcohol was three times the legal limit. The Amanda Law has changed EPO’s and DVO’s. Siblings can’t get them on each other.”

“But your county attorney might sign it anyway just to get Oat out of his face.”

“No, I don’t see that happening. James’s wife was a victim of domestic violence by the hands of her first husband. He is too aware of the consequences to do that.”

“I still say you need to put ink to paper in some form to keep this from coming back to hurt you.” Esther encouraged. “What about an assault charge?”

“And say what,” Oscar was getting annoyed, “that he was so drunk that when he tried to break my nose all he managed to do was poke his finger up it? How embarrassing!”

Chet looked at Esther wild eyed, “what?”

“He swung at Oscar twice and missed. When he figured out a direct hit wouldn’t work, he lunged at Oscar pushing him backwards on the couch. I got him off and pinned him to the floor. Oscar’s nose was bleeding. I don’t think it’s broken. I think all Oat managed to do was ram his finger up Oscar’s nose. Oscar told him to leave, that he couldn’t come back. As he was leaving, he fell down the steps.”

“The arresting officer said that he has a scratch on his forehead, his nose and the palm of his right hand. He also tried to fight the arresting officer and was cussin’ you every breath. There was a Jack Daniel’s bottle and two empty fifths of Jim Beam in the floor board of his truck.”

Oscar let out a long sigh, “now what?”

“I want you to go to the ER and have that nose checked. Tell them I sent you and make sure they fax me a copy of the report.”

“Why the ER?” Oscar was exasperated.

“Esther, help me.” Chet implored.

“I’ll do my best.” Oscar just stared at her. She wasn’t even sure that he saw her. “Honey, I want you to be protected. I don’t trust your family as far as I could pick any of them up to throw them. Please,” she held his hands in hers. “Protect yourself.”

“Will you come with me? This is so embarrassing.”

“You know I will,” she gave him a reassuring smile.

“Esther, I’m going to need your statement.”

“Of course.”

Emotions

A study published in the Proceedings of National Academy of Sciences suggests that there are as many as 27 different categories of emotions.

Robert Plutchik believed that humans can experience over 34,000 unique emotions but, ordinarily, they experience eight primary emotions.

I dislike them all: unobtainable, unachievable, unsustainable, some undesirable.

Wars have been fought.

Statues and buildings built.

Movies, books, poems, songs written.

We pine. We mourn. We grieve.

We love. We loose. We sing.

We shout. We cry. We rejoice.

But only for the briefest of time.

That feeling slides into memory.

A drug for the mind.

Fuel for my pen.

Flame for my brain.

Unobtainable, unachievable, unsustainable!

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https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/urban-survival/201709/there-are-27-different-emotions-new-study-suggests

A song

I had a dream about you the other night.

Nothing obscene. Nothing to cause a fright.

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In my dream, I got to see you play.

At a local festival. It was day.

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You had no idea I was around.

Singing and playing, happiness you had found.

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A little lady about 85,

patted me on the arm. So alive.

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Her mouth in a grin.

Her lips in a bend.

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Everyone was in a trance.

Enjoying your stance.

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You promised me a song.

In my dream there was no tone.

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You are not off the hook.

This page is now in your book.

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I’m gonna hold you to my song.

You might even let me hum along.

Winter Season

Please be advised ADULT LANGUAGE!

Spring Break!

Oscar never went anywhere but it was good just to have the time off. All too often he had heard people say what a pie job teaching was. He was in the thick of it and begged to differ.

Esther wanted to get to know more about this part of Kentucky. It was their intention to spend several days with a map, just driving around.

Oscar was just about ready to leave when that thunderous pounding came to his door.

He swung it open, “why can’t you ring the doorbell?” He pointed it out. “I do have one.”

Oat stumbled through the door, “Mr. Fan-see pants has ah door,” he hiccupped.

“Bell.”

“Are you drunk? You’ve lost some of your trash talk.”

He tried to grin sheepishly but instead ended up looking like someone had stepped on his toe. “Noooooo,” he waved at an invisible gnat that wasn’t buzzing around his head.

Oscar quickly text Esther to come over and to please hurry; the last thing he wanted was to be alone with his drunk brother.

When Esther got there, neither of the two men were sitting down. Oat didn’t even know she was in the world.

“Ya,” Oat pointed a dirty finger at Oscar as he tried to stand. “Rat-bassss,tard.”

“Excuse me.”

“Maw,” he hiccupped again. “Told me what ya DID.”

“And what did I do?”

“Ya tuk it all.” He batted at the invisible gnat again. “Ever-thang dad had, you tuk it.”

“Dad didn’t have anything to take, except debt. There was nothing to take.”

Esther text Chet and told him that Oat was at Oscar’s house and very drunk. They might need some help. Oscar watched her out of the corner of his eye as his brother raved on.

“Lie!” He screamed. “Pack ah lies. Maw told me ya left us pen-e-less, busted.”

“That’s not true.”

Oat pointed at him. “You calling maw a lar?”

“I’m saying someone doesn’t have their facts straight.”

“Ya big shot ain’t ja? This house, that truck ya got. Your fan-cie school.”

“And I paid for it all. Dad didn’t put one red cent toward any of it?”

“LAR!” He roared. “You tuk ever-thang.” He took a swing at Oscar but was too far away. The force of his own swing just about caused him to fall. “We strug-gle; while Mr. Big S-Shot lives,” he hiccupped again. “In style.” He pointed around the room, still not seeing Esther.

“Perhaps if you got a job and added to the income of your household, you and your family would have nice things.”

Oat took another swing at Oscar, still missing him. “Stands still, rat bassss-tard.”

“What did mom tell you I did?” Oscar was getting madder by the second.

Esther mouthed at him, ‘don’t get mad.’ He swallowed hard, trying to fight back his anger.

“Ya tuk all dad’s green.”

“Dad got two checks: social security and black lung. He kept the smaller of the two, the social security for things he wanted and gave the other one to mom.”

“LAR!”

“I’m sorry that you believe a false truth.”

Esther mouthed to him again, ‘breathe.’

He was trying. He almost sat down but Esther discouraged it.

“What do you want?” Oscar finally asked.

“Hon-est.”

“You are too drunk to know the truth.”

Oat lunged at his brother. Oscar was trying so hard not to get mad that he wasn’t paying attention to his brother’s features. Oat pushed him backwards on the couch. Esther; however, was paying attention. She was able to pull Oat off Oscar and pin him to the floor. Oscar’s nose was bleeding. She let Oat up once he stopped struggling. “Get out of my house. Don’t ever come back.”

Eat or breathe

Cleaning the yard

can be quite hard.

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A lovely day

no where close to May.

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Down tree limbs

a brush pile laden to the brim.

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Saw’em up and burn’em in a pit;

clean that yard. Have a pop and sit.

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Enjoy being outside.

Watch the sun; across the sky, ride.

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The curse of allergies comes for a visit.

My poor head and nose giving me fits.

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Working outside in the fresh air works up quite the appetite.

Into this sandwich, I wish to bite.

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Sadly, I can’t eat and breathe at the same time.

My stomach is growling, ‘mine! All mine!’

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‘But you don’t understand’, my nose does plead.

‘We can’t breathe and feed.

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Can’t you wait till tomorrow?

Can’t you feel my sorrow’?

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‘Empty, I am. Hungry now.’

My eye raised a brow.

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My head was already hurting.

Full of congestion; with disaster, flirting.

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My body couldn’t handle a total meltdown.

With 7 sneezes in a row, we avoided a complete shutdown.

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The nose was able to breathe long enough to eat.

Now I’m hoping my head and pillow will meet.

DIY is my go to

Describe the most ambitious DIY project you’ve ever taken on.

I’m all about DIY projects. Fixing cracks in the carport.
Mowing the yard.
Making a u shape extention to my driveway.
During the Covid lockdown, my family had a paint party and we painted; then another friend helped me install cabinets in my kitchen.
All the flooring in my house, I’ve replaced.

From trimming trees to pressure washing the house, sometimes you just gotta do it.

Talk about

My world is calm and peaceful this morning.

Last of winters snow covers the ground.

Nothing is making a sound.

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For a moment, sit, embrace the cold.

Listen for natures stories untold.

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“Still dreaming of things never meant to be?”

With a half smile, sweet reply, ‘still dreaming of that pie in the sky.

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Why not sit with me?’

“It’s to painful to dream of things that will never be.”

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‘At least you’re talking to me instead of trying to shut me out.’

“You are the other half of me without a doubt.

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I don’t want to see your dreams.

When they fail, I don’t want to hear you scream.”

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‘Dreaming is fun.’

“Childish dreams. They will never see the sun.”

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‘Dreaming is amazing.’

“Just another let down. Leave us dazing.”

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‘You dream, I know you do.’

“Let’s not talk about those, they just make me blue.”

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‘Let’s just dream anyway?

What do you say?’

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“I can’t let you get carried away.

Come what may.

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Picking up the pieces is too hard.

Always, bent, broken and scarred.”

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‘Dream with me.’

“I’d kill you if I could. Killing you would mean killing me and that can’t be.”

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‘I feel the love. Just make me cry.’

“No more than the tears that I can’t dry.

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From dreams neither of us can hide.

I really don’t want to come along for the ride.”

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‘I need to dream. And you do too.

Dreams of things that are never blue.

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Dreams that could come true tomorrow?’

Heavy sigh, “dreams that will only bring us sorrow.”

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‘Dreams are a necessary part of livin’.’

“Are they really? They leave us feelin’,

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cold, empty, with no place to mourn.”

‘Dreams are warm and toasty. Pleasure born.’

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“Can we find a balance? One where I wish not to cut out every dream you ever had.”

‘Most likely not, which makes me sad.’

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“You’re the biggest fool that ever lived.”

‘According to you, I know your secret rived.’

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“Then it’s not a secret; knowing I want to rip your heart out.”

‘Such violence about.”

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“Let’s not dream. Let’s cut out that part.”

‘That’s not an easy start.’

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“Dream when we’re asleep. Not when we’re awake.”

‘It’s the day dreams that cause you to quake?’

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“Talking to you is pointless.”

‘See you soon, nonetheless.

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Trust God. He will provide.’

“Would you just die?”