Once there was Darkness

Walking to dinner

Max was waiting on Kol when he stepped from his chambers. He bowed his head, “my king.”

Kol was stunned, “Max?”

“I’m to walk you to dinner.”

“Is there something I should know?”

“I’m unsure. My king, I was given instructions to have Asher accompany your mother. Violet with Frego and Luke with Rajaf. It may simply be for training.”

Kessa was the one attacked. She and Rajaf. Who is with her?”

“Petro and Beth. If you haven’t met them, you will tonight.”

“Are they Bejhar?”

Max smiled, “no.”

“What is she not telling me Max?”

“That is a conversation the two of you need to have. I wouldn’t know, my king.”

Kol stopped and turned to Max, just looking at him. Max knew he wanted to say something. He prayed it wasn’t about the bell tower again.

“Thank you. I know I sometimes say it in the moment when things are happening. But.” He trailed off.

“My king, it is my honor.” Kol motioned for them to start walking again. “Do you remember the first time you met me?”

“My first day at the barracks?”

“No, my king. I was asleep under a tree by the river. I saw you standing at the waters edge. Just standing there. I guess you felt me watching you or God told you I was there. But you saw me and walked over to me, sat down, and proceeded to share your lunch with me. Neither of us spoke but I was grateful for the food.”

“No, I don’t remember that.”

“The next time I saw you, it was a couple days later. This time, you came looking for me. I honestly have no idea how old you were. I just remember that you were little and kind. The third time it happened, I followed you back to the temple.”

“And?” Kol asked.

“I saw you get pushed into a chair and yelled at for what felt like hours. But you came back to the tree in a couple days. You didn’t eat with me but you put food under the tree. As if you knew I’d be there.”

“Who yelled at me?”

“I wasn’t able to get a clear view. I do know it was a woman. You came back again but a man, Abraham was with you, he too was kind. He talked me into going to the temple for real. You know, I never heard you speak until you came to the barracks.” They continued their walk in silence.

I’ll wait here

I’ll wait here

Noise fills the kitchen all around.
Noise from a machine running.
Noise from liquid gurgling.
I’ll wait here.

Blowing smoke like a dragon.
Poised to breathe fire.
Puff, puff, puff.
I’ll wait here.

In about 15 minutes, you’ll be finished.
I can sit still that long.
Can you?
I’ll wait here.

Maybe I’ll get a special treat?
Maybe some extra love?
I’m a good boy.
I’ll wait here.

Oh no. A new noise.
A cough. We’ve heard that a lot this week.
Are you okay?
I’ll wait here.

No more smoke.
No more noise.
Are you finished?
Let’s go to potty town.
No more waiting here.

Once there was Darkness

Chapter 24

Kol actually went to bed light hearted. This day (for the most part) had been pleasant. Frego, Violet, Max, Kessa, and he had gone fishing. Frego was having fun. Kessa had recovered. It was a good day.

Maybe tonight he wouldn’t dream? ‘Please Lord, no dreams.’

He was in the palace garden. The air around him was calm, peaceful. He took a deep breath letting it fill his lungs. As he walked deeper into the garden, the flowers became fewer. But the leaves were changing as well. Each leaf was outlined with lights that glowed brightly with different colored light: pink, purple, yellow, orange, blue, red, all the colors. He marveled at how this could happen.

There among the leaves and lights he saw Kessa. Just laying there. She looked peaceful. Just asleep. He bent down to caress her face; she was cold to the touch. He called her name. Nothing. Again and again he called her name. Nothing.

Suddenly, the skin on her face became transparent. Bones and muscles became visible. Her face was transformed into the face of his father. After a few minutes of time had passed. Time that he just stared at his long dead fathers face, the eyes opened. Those eyes begged at him. Kol wanted to know what the begging look was for? He dared not speak just in case he got an answer. As the body began to rise, Kol fell backwards. The mouth fell open as conenose bugs spewed out. Kol screamed. He hated bugs. They flowed out in such numbers that they were coming for him. He started crawling backwards as the bugs just kept coming. He couldn’t get away fast enough.

With a scream, he rose straight up in bed. Straight into Kessa’s arms. His breathing was frantic. His heart was beating wildly. She just held him. When she could feel his heart beat slow down she said, “my king?”

As he pulled away from her, she saw that his whole body was shaking. She reached out her hands and he accepted. ‘Sweaty palms, heart racing, body jerks; one horrific nightmare.’ She told herself.

In an unsteady voice he asked, “ what are you wearing?”

She smiled, “I’m not sure. Your porter brought it to me. I’d say it’s from one of the beds.”

He cleared his throat, “you are not on duty?”

“No, Luke came for me, my king.”

“Why?”

“You were screaming my name.”

“Thank you for being here.” He let go of her hands. As he lay back down he asked again, “what is that thing?”

“Does it really look that ridiculous?” Her smile was comforting.

In her presence, he went back to sleep.

When he woke again, he thought all of the events had been a dream until he saw Kessa asleep on his pile of cushions. Now he saw what she had been wrapped in had been on top of a bed in the guest wing. The cover was pulled tightly around her neck. He smiled seeing her feet exposed. He looked around for her shoes without success.

There was a container of water next to his bed. He took it and gently washed her feet. They seemed so delicate yet he knew how important they were. It took all his restraint not to kiss them. There was something on her toes. Only bad girls painted their toes. At least that was what he had been taught. From all he knew of Kessa, she wasn’t a ‘bad girl’. The sight of the paint thrilled him even more.

When Kol was about 10, his dad gave him a ring. Just a plain little ring he had bought from a vendor during one of his many trips. As he grew, the ring went from his thumb to his little finger. At one point, he and his mother had a heated argument that he should throw the ring away. He even woke one night to her trying to take it off his finger. He looked at the ring; then at Kessa’s third toe. ‘It will fit.’ He took it off and yes, it did fit. The fight within him continued not to kiss her foot, each toe. Then a new thought hit him, would she accept his gift? It wasn’t anything extraordinary. Roy added the Bible verse to it beautifully.

When he looked up, she was watching him. The feelings he felt were so familiar. As a child, he often felt like he had been caught doing something bad. “Will you accept my gift?”

“Thank you, my king. If you ever decide you want it back,” she stopped short as he lowered his head to her feet.

Her toes could have easily wiggled through his hair. “How much trouble would I get in if I wiggled my toes through your hair?”

His voice shattered when he spoke, “more than I can bare. My gift is freely given.”

“Freely accepted.”

Waste not. Want not: sandwich bags

This poem is being written in stages to highlight the things I do toward frugal living.

I’m doing dishes anyway. No electric dishwasher near.
I pack my lunch almost every day. These sandwich bags here;

I haven’t bought new ones in years.
I wash them out until cracks appear.

Organized in old tissue boxes. Painted and labeled neat.
Baby steps toward my financial goals, meet.

This is what I have written so far:

Waste not. Want not.

Growing up; my daily life was filled with the saying, “waste not, want not.”

When you’re young, what clue do you have in lives dot?

As we grow; we learn, “money doesn’t grow on trees.”

I save the salt from chocolate squeeze.

To my stew you are added.

Flavor has been padded.

Aw sheet!

Blasted hole. This is not a treat.

I’m gonna fix you. I guarantee.

From my needle you need to flee.

More time will be added to your life. Around you I shall mend.

So more dream filled nights, you can tend.

Coffee. Nectar of God. You help me through another day.

Upright and functional, you help me stay.

What about your grounds?

A use for you, I have found.

Nutrients to the soil you will add.

Helping my veggies grow big and strong. Which will make me very glad.

Leftovers are my jam.

From me, they do not scram.

I freeze you to eat you for lunch.

Which helps my overall finances a bunch.

Someday I’d like to retire.

I’m sick of this mire.

Toothpaste: squeeze, squeeze you. But never tease me.

I will cut you open before I let you be.

Give me all your power.

Your contents, I will devour.

Inside I find more paste.

Enough for at lease 5 more brushings. No waste.

Mustard, ketchup, butter, pepper, or salt.

I don’t eat out a lot. Put that spending to a halt.

When I do, those condiment packets will be saved.

Eaten later or added to a recipe, usefulness will be made.

Some restaurants now days are making us pay for those.

Concerning our budgets, we must be on our toes.

I’m doing dishes anyway. No electric dishwasher near.

I pack my lunch almost every day. These sandwich bags here;

I haven’t bought new ones in years.

I wash them out until cracks appear.

Organized in old tissue boxes. Painted and labeled neat.

Baby steps toward my financial goals, meet.

Once there was Darkness

Chapter 23

Kol was just standing in the middle of his chamber. “My king?”

He wanted to say a million different things. But nothing came out. Each thought was fighting for supreme rule.

He slowly moved his head toward her. His movements were of someone in great pain. She smiled, taking his hand. He would follow her no matter where she led him. Which just happened to be to the kitchen. No one was around. He sat at a long table were food was prepared for the stoves behind them. Kessa knew her way around like she had done this a thousand times.

“What are you doing?” He finally asked.

“Eggs should be easy on your stomach. I don’t think you’ve eaten in a couple days.”

“I should be cooking for you.”

“You can cook?” She asked playfully.

He just blushed.

She searched around and found a white block. “Cheese.” She put out two plates, two forks, and two glasses of water. After plating the eggs, she shredded cheese on top of her plate, put the cheese back where she found it before sitting down beside him. He went to get a bite of her eggs with the cheese but his hands started shaking. She softly touched his hand taking the fork from him. He laid his hand on her knee. She put a small bite of the egg and cheese on the fork and fed him.

“Thank you.” With closed eyes, he shook his head. Kessa had to call for Max in order to get Kol back to his chamber and to bed. “Thank you Max,” she whispered.

“I will be close if you need me.” He left.

“Kes,” Kol’s voice was but a whisper.

“I’m here, my king.”

“My head hurts. My eyes.”

“Lay as still as you can.” She asked for a bowl of water and a cloth. For the rest of the day, she kept a cool wet cloth on his forehead. “Forgive me my king.”

“What for?” He moaned.

“I shouldn’t have taken you down to the kitchen. I thought maybe a change of scenery would help.”

“You have nothing to be sorry for. Thank you for trying.” He draped his arm over her leg resting his hand on her waist. “Don’t leave me.” He moaned. “How are you feeling?”

She blushed, “doing better every day, my king. I’m not going anywhere.”

“Marry me.” He whimpered.

Praise the Lord, there was a gentle knock on the door. It was Rajaf and Frego.

Rajaf asked in a low voice, “what’s wrong?”

“His head and eyes hurt.”

“Young prince, will you accompany me to get medicine. You can bring it back much faster than I.”

“Of course.” They quickly but quietly left.

Frego returned with the medicine. “Rajaf says to place this on dad’s tongue. It will dissolve.”

“Thank you, young prince.”

“What else can I do?” Frego asked.

“Would you care to see if To will fix some broth. Maybe some bread and cheese. I’m praying when he wakes, he will be hungry.”

“Of course.” He left.

Kol had been breathing with his mouth open, so getting the powder on his tongue wasn’t a problem.

When Kol woke, he found Kessa laying on his shoulder. He snuggled his nose into her hair and took a deep breath before kissing her head. She rose up, caressing his face. “How do you feel?”

“Somewhat better.”

“Frego got broth and bread if you are hungry.”

“I think I’ve figured out where the trinket came from.”

“Feel like sharing, my king.”

“When we fought the Zeede, I took the coverings off of one of the Zeede to cover you with. It must have been on him.”

“If you really want to know, I’m sure I can take it to the market and someone will know what it is?”

“I like my idea,” He gave her a weak playful smile as he took her hands in his, “thank you for taking such good care of me.”

She smiled a big smile, “it was a team effort.”

Once there was Darkness

The Fall

Part 2

A hole was burning inside Kol. ‘Where was she and why? Was she okay?’ He couldn’t sleep. Back and forth he paced.

14 days, no Kessa. He felt like he needed to go look for her but had no idea where to start.

21 days, no Kessa. He walked back up to her house. Standing on the balcony, he suddenly felt dizzy. It was a long way down. Jagged rocks all the way down. Then again, a body may not make it very far.

“My king.” It was that lady.

“You’re Beth?”

“I am, my king.” She lowered her gaze, “Kessa is asleep.”

“When did she get back?”

“I’m not sure. I found her this morning. Should I see if she’s awake.”

“Thank you, Beth.” Kessa’s voice was soft and low.

“Thank you.” Kol spoke. She lowered her glance to the king. Smiling at Kessa, “should I bring out tea?”

Kessa looked at Kol, “none for me thanks.”

“No, thank you.”

She left.

“Where have you been?” She started to speak. He held up his hand. “Kessa, are you okay?” He sat on the railing of her balcony.

She couldn’t say what she needed to say. Maybe changing the subject, “you? Are you okay?”

“Yes. So much so, Max and I went to the Blue Chicken last night.” He smiled.

She blushed, “you maybe but not Max.”

“I’m hurt. You have so little faith in me?” He lost his balance and started falling backwards. “Holy, no.” He stood looking over the railing, “nope.” When he turned to look at Kessa, her expression scared him. She was scared. “Kessa,” he softly called her name. As he touched her shoulders, he felt her shaking. Where was she? “Kessa?”

Suddenly, she snapped back into reality. Anger flashed in her eyes as she ran back inside the house.

“Kessa!” He shouted after her. “Kessa!” She was kneeling in the floor beside a bed, visibly shaking. “I’m sorry.” He hugged her up. “I’m sorry.”

He woke to complete darkness, rubbing his medallion. Where had she been? What was he apologizing for? Before he almost fell, she looked sad, lost. The light was gone from her eyes. It was Kessa. When he started to fall, shouldn’t she have been right there to catch him? But she wasn’t. She was frozen in terror. Why had she and Max both asked him if he was okay? The Blue Chicken, he would rather burn it down than step foot in there. Was this a memory or a dream?

I’m the fool

For a split second. A brief moment in time.

I thought. I prayed your apology might be genuine.

The call you made.

This game will fade.

Then I prayed, “God if this is real,

lay it on my heart to deal.”

But the need, desire isn’t there.

Quite to the contraire.

Then I get an envelope, nothing inside.

A message on the outside. Nothing to hide.

“Shame on me.”

Really? Now I see.

The call never was about me.

Just my relatives, 3.

I felt in my heart from the start,

this was a back handed art.

I love you all. But it’s all about you.

Stress, guilt, drama to ensue.

No, not this time.

Not with my dime.

No time for your game.

Today, tomorrow always the same.

May God keep, guide and protect you all.

I’m done. On my hands and knees, I will not crawl.

“Shame on me.”

This is your decree.

Shame on me. For not standing up for me sooner.

I pray this was your last maneuver.

“I’m proud of you.”

What was the best compliment you’ve received?

In Dec. 2003, I bought my first house. Small; less than 1,000 square feet. It almost didn’t qualify for a mortgage.

In the spring of 2004, I got to bring dad here to show him ‘my house.’ Well, mine and the bank. That was the first time in my life I remember my dad telling me he was proud of me.

Dad was born in 1913 (according to him). Times were very different. Getting my first car. Getting a degree. Getting my first ‘real job.’ These things didn’t impress him much. But a home. I will never know what it was about this that made him so proud.

Dad passed away in Dec. 2005. I’m glad he got the chance to visit me. He never would spend the night. He had to be home before dark. His home.

If you are interested in getting a little more insight into my dad; read my blog post The Legend of Dan Gut. It is based on a trip to our family cemetery. https://byjolenerice.wordpress.com/2022/10/31/the-legend-of-dan-gut/