Once there was Darkness

Chapter 26

Kessa sat across from him at her table. His mother was given the head spot. He tried so hard not to stare at Kessa. Several times, he knew his mother caught him. She always met him with a blank stare.

How many times had he made Kessa blush as she downcast her glance? He would marry her right here. Right now if she would.

It was a very relaxing evening. He needed a lot more of them.

He met Beth and Petro.

After an amazing meal and delightful conversation; Rajaf patted his stomach, “I’d better be heading home.”

“Dad, you know you’re welcome to stay.”

He kissed Kessa’s forehead, “I know baby girl. Thank you but no bed sleeps like your own bed.” He laughed.

“I’ll join you.” The queen mother sounded.

Kol looked at Kessa. She nodded, leaving the room. Returning with Max. “Max will be close by if you need him.” She smiled.

They left. Frego stayed around a little longer. “My son, I have something for you.” He presented Frego with the medallion.”

“This is beautiful.” Kol put it around his sons neck.

“I think so too.”

“Violet is outside to walk with you, whenever you’re ready.” Kessa smiled.

Kol watched them walk away. Kessa appeared with two cups of tea. They sat on the porch overlooking their city.

“Kessa, I’m sorry. I handled the situation about mother going with you all wrong. I shouldn’t have done that to you.”

Her smile was unexpected, “I’ll forgive you this time.” She teased. He held out his hand for her, she accepted. “You know I’m here if you ever want to talk.”

“Thank you.”

“Your mother seems distracted, if you don’t mind my observation.”

“Hmm,” Kol voiced.

Kessa woke to Beth patting her arm. She looked over to see that Kol was asleep. He was still holding her hand.

“Shall we wake him?” Beth asked in a whisper.

“No, I’ll cover him up. Let’s let him sleep.” When Kessa covered him up, he wrapped the cover tighter around himself never waking. When he finally woke, Kessa and Beth were bringing breakfast outside. “Good morning.” Kessa smiled.

Beth lowered her head as she smiled.

After breakfast; he took a bath and changed. He found Kessa sitting on the porch. There was stuff all around her. “Kessa, thank you. I haven’t felt this good in a long time.”

“My door is always open.”

“What are you doing?” He asked taking the other chair. The blanket he had slept under was still draped over the arm.

“Mending.”

“Mending?” He questioned.

“Patching up holes.”

He looked confused, “why just not get new ones?”

She winked, “why, my king?”

He thought about what she was asking. “Can you not?”

A blush crept onto her face, “I can but choose not to.”

“I don’t understand.”

“You can not run a palace the way I run my house. Images must be maintained.”

“It was your idea to take the extra food to the wall?” She nodded. He smiled “To has taken lessons from you.”

“Your mother was quite upset over his new kitchen habits.”

“She can accept it or not. Will you show me around?” His curiosity was genuine.

“Sure. You’ve seen the house.” Between her house and the stable was a small house. “Beth and Petro decided they wanted to live there.”

“They are married.”

“Yes.” There were three horses in the stable. A couple goats. A few chickens.

“I thought you would have more animals. The way you enjoy cooking.”

“I spend most of my time at dad’s.”

“Then why do Beth and Petro not live in the big house?”

She smiled, “they didn’t want to.”

He nodded. She took him to the other side of the house. There were 3 trails, one led to the city. One led to the mountains behind her house. The third led to a spot that overlooked a small crescent shaped beach. Kol’s heart sank. Was this the beach in his dream? “Do you go down there often?”

“Sometimes. It’s more enjoyable walking Mecca’s beaches.”

He helped prepare dinner. Set the table. They danced around the kitchen to Petro’s playing. In all honesty, she and Beth did the dancing. He mostly watched them dance but from time to time, she would move him. He knew in his heart that this type of movement was not the subject of her writing he read at Rajaf’s. But it was movement none the less.

Hot Fuzz

What makes you laugh?

Hot Fuzz: A skilled London police officer, after irritating superiors with his embarrassing effectiveness, is transferred to a village where the easygoing officers object to his fervor for regulations, as a string of grisly murders strikes the town. IMDb.com

2007 R 2h 1m

Will I was on sick leave from work; Hot Fuzz was one of the movies I watched. In my opinion, Simon Pegg is a very talented actor.

I’ll try not to give too many spoilers. His character: (Simon Pegg) Nicholas Angel and his partner PC Danny Buttermore (Nick Frost) are sent out to recover a swan. When they catch the swan, they put it in the back of the police car because they are in the middle of a car chase.

Once the car chase is over, the bad guy hops in their car to make a quick get away not knowing to swam is in the back seat. It pops up honking at the driver, which scares him.

I got tickled and started laughing. Which quickly turned into a coughing fit. I went back and forth between coughing and laughing for a good 5 minutes.

https://youtu.be/ayTnvVpj9t4

I hope the link works. My connection is acting goofy.

Once there was Darkness

Chapter 25

Since the queen mother had returned, Kessa was able to make good on her promise of dinner.

They were given free rein of the house. Kessa’s home was their home. Every day he found more out about this woman. How amazing she was. He found himself in a small study. It reminded him so much of being at Rajaf’s. He sat down at the desk piled with books, papers, scrolls, and just odd stuff that he couldn’t identify. On the only clean spot was two pieces of paper. He fought with himself about invading her privacy and reading them. Instead, he opened a drawer. ‘How odd?’ He thought. In the corner of the drawer was a grass ring. It looked brittle. Old for grass. He wanted to touch it but was afraid it would fall apart.

He shut the drawer. Curiosity got the best of him concerning the papers. He read them:

Fighting with God

Genesis 32: 22-32

Your will shall prevail.

Oh Lord, this is not easy.

You have lifted a veil.

This direction makes me queasy.

Is this truly the path you wish me to follow?

With Jacob you wrestled –

Lord, I am terrified. In this sin, I wish not to wallow.

I am relying on you to be my trestle.

I hear you. I think I understand.

Even Jesus ask for this cup to be removed.

Guide me through your plan.

I do not disapprove.

My knees shake,

while my blood boils.

My heart quakes.

The current fold, I wish not to soil.

Help me Lord.

Guide my hand.

This next phase of my life – help me ford.

I am terrified of this (quick) sand.

I made you a promise.

Only you can redirect my life.

Only you can make me conscious.

Bring an end to my strife.

Your face is what I seek.

Bring me to Peniel, oh Lord.

How long will we wrestle?

How long must I suffer?

He read it again. Was this about him? About them? He read it again. ‘You have lifted a veil.’ That line was about him. God was just now letting him see what an amazing person Kessa was. But the rest was her struggle. He didn’t know if he should be happy or mad. How could he be so terrifying? He was just a man. Why was she wrestling with God? Then it dawned on him, he was wrestling with his own demons while she was working this out with God. He absent mindedly wondered through the house.

He found himself in another small room. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath. This room was comfortable and inviting. A calm feeling washed over him and he started feeling at ease. When he looked around, there wasn’t a lot of furniture in this room. A chair, piles of books, a round stool.

“Dinner is about ready.” She was behind him.

“What is this room?”

“It’s going to be a library when I’m done. My king, why?”

“Have I been here before?”

“Once.”

“Promise, just once.”

“Your house feels like an old friend.”

“Thank you.”

“You promise?”

“If you have been here more than once, I don’t know about it. Please come with me.” She led him back to her study. From one of the desk drawers she produced a box. “Is this good?” It was a medallion for Frego. It was smaller than Kol’s. Instead of gold, it was made from silver.

“What does it say?”

“Psalms 16:1”

“Why will you not tell me who made these?”

“Does it honestly matter? Especially, if you are pleased, my king.”

He hugged her. She wasn’t quite sure how long to let the hug last. It seemed to her that he needed a hug. So she hugged him back. Or maybe she needed a hug? He ended the hug with a kiss. “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.” His head was resting on her forehead. He was holding her face in his hands. “I’m sorry.”

“Did you mean it?”

‘Yes, say yes. You meant it.’ His brain screamed. Finally he said it out loud, “Yes.”

“Then don’t be sorry.” She gently whispered in his ear. So close her breath made him shiver.

“You didn’t answer my question.”

“I’m sorry my king. Question?”

“Will you marry me?”

“If I may be honest, I thought it was the pain talking.”

“I understand why you would think that.”

She kissed him gently on the lips. “I didn’t say no.”

The pursuit of happiness

Happy

Are you happy?

This is not a loaded question; crappy.

Defined, the feeling of showing pleasure.

This section we can measure.

Contentment, what?

Those aren’t the same thing. Nope! Let’s depart.

Content and happy, they aren’t even relatable. What planet are you from?

I want. I see. I need. Dumb!

Try being happy when you’re down on your luck.

In menopause, stuck.

Happiness is fleeting.

It will leave your head and your tail meeting.

I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY.

I don’t care who I hurt to get there, sappy.

Chase, catch, gone.

Weary to the bone.

Be content. Be still.

Stop running on the mill.

If ‘life is what you make it,’ make it.

Don’t get broken in by it.

Life is tough enough.

Mostly, it’s just stuff.

Be content with your job, till you find a new one.

Be content with your life, fun.

Be content with your house.

Be content with your spouse.

Be content with your car.

Be content thus far.

Happiness is fleeting.

Happiness is beating.

“Avoiding unhappiness is not the road to happiness.” Hector and the Pursuit of Happiness

The Declaration of Independence calls ‘the pursuit of happiness’ one of our unalienable right.

“Happiness is a choice. Not a destination.” Alux.com

Everyone just wants to be happy. What happens when we catch it? Can we keep it? Is the pursuit (the chase) the best part? Is the dream of happiness; is that what keeps it alive? It’s just a dream.

Once there was Darkness

Walking to dinner

Max was waiting on Kol when he stepped from his chambers. He bowed his head, “my king.”

Kol was stunned, “Max?”

“I’m to walk you to dinner.”

“Is there something I should know?”

“I’m unsure. My king, I was given instructions to have Asher accompany your mother. Violet with Frego and Luke with Rajaf. It may simply be for training.”

Kessa was the one attacked. She and Rajaf. Who is with her?”

“Petro and Beth. If you haven’t met them, you will tonight.”

“Are they Bejhar?”

Max smiled, “no.”

“What is she not telling me Max?”

“That is a conversation the two of you need to have. I wouldn’t know, my king.”

Kol stopped and turned to Max, just looking at him. Max knew he wanted to say something. He prayed it wasn’t about the bell tower again.

“Thank you. I know I sometimes say it in the moment when things are happening. But.” He trailed off.

“My king, it is my honor.” Kol motioned for them to start walking again. “Do you remember the first time you met me?”

“My first day at the barracks?”

“No, my king. I was asleep under a tree by the river. I saw you standing at the waters edge. Just standing there. I guess you felt me watching you or God told you I was there. But you saw me and walked over to me, sat down, and proceeded to share your lunch with me. Neither of us spoke but I was grateful for the food.”

“No, I don’t remember that.”

“The next time I saw you, it was a couple days later. This time, you came looking for me. I honestly have no idea how old you were. I just remember that you were little and kind. The third time it happened, I followed you back to the temple.”

“And?” Kol asked.

“I saw you get pushed into a chair and yelled at for what felt like hours. But you came back to the tree in a couple days. You didn’t eat with me but you put food under the tree. As if you knew I’d be there.”

“Who yelled at me?”

“I wasn’t able to get a clear view. I do know it was a woman. You came back again but a man, Abraham was with you, he too was kind. He talked me into going to the temple for real. You know, I never heard you speak until you came to the barracks.” They continued their walk in silence.

I’ll wait here

I’ll wait here

Noise fills the kitchen all around.
Noise from a machine running.
Noise from liquid gurgling.
I’ll wait here.

Blowing smoke like a dragon.
Poised to breathe fire.
Puff, puff, puff.
I’ll wait here.

In about 15 minutes, you’ll be finished.
I can sit still that long.
Can you?
I’ll wait here.

Maybe I’ll get a special treat?
Maybe some extra love?
I’m a good boy.
I’ll wait here.

Oh no. A new noise.
A cough. We’ve heard that a lot this week.
Are you okay?
I’ll wait here.

No more smoke.
No more noise.
Are you finished?
Let’s go to potty town.
No more waiting here.

Once there was Darkness

Chapter 24

Kol actually went to bed light hearted. This day (for the most part) had been pleasant. Frego, Violet, Max, Kessa, and he had gone fishing. Frego was having fun. Kessa had recovered. It was a good day.

Maybe tonight he wouldn’t dream? ‘Please Lord, no dreams.’

He was in the palace garden. The air around him was calm, peaceful. He took a deep breath letting it fill his lungs. As he walked deeper into the garden, the flowers became fewer. But the leaves were changing as well. Each leaf was outlined with lights that glowed brightly with different colored light: pink, purple, yellow, orange, blue, red, all the colors. He marveled at how this could happen.

There among the leaves and lights he saw Kessa. Just laying there. She looked peaceful. Just asleep. He bent down to caress her face; she was cold to the touch. He called her name. Nothing. Again and again he called her name. Nothing.

Suddenly, the skin on her face became transparent. Bones and muscles became visible. Her face was transformed into the face of his father. After a few minutes of time had passed. Time that he just stared at his long dead fathers face, the eyes opened. Those eyes begged at him. Kol wanted to know what the begging look was for? He dared not speak just in case he got an answer. As the body began to rise, Kol fell backwards. The mouth fell open as conenose bugs spewed out. Kol screamed. He hated bugs. They flowed out in such numbers that they were coming for him. He started crawling backwards as the bugs just kept coming. He couldn’t get away fast enough.

With a scream, he rose straight up in bed. Straight into Kessa’s arms. His breathing was frantic. His heart was beating wildly. She just held him. When she could feel his heart beat slow down she said, “my king?”

As he pulled away from her, she saw that his whole body was shaking. She reached out her hands and he accepted. ‘Sweaty palms, heart racing, body jerks; one horrific nightmare.’ She told herself.

In an unsteady voice he asked, “ what are you wearing?”

She smiled, “I’m not sure. Your porter brought it to me. I’d say it’s from one of the beds.”

He cleared his throat, “you are not on duty?”

“No, Luke came for me, my king.”

“Why?”

“You were screaming my name.”

“Thank you for being here.” He let go of her hands. As he lay back down he asked again, “what is that thing?”

“Does it really look that ridiculous?” Her smile was comforting.

In her presence, he went back to sleep.

When he woke again, he thought all of the events had been a dream until he saw Kessa asleep on his pile of cushions. Now he saw what she had been wrapped in had been on top of a bed in the guest wing. The cover was pulled tightly around her neck. He smiled seeing her feet exposed. He looked around for her shoes without success.

There was a container of water next to his bed. He took it and gently washed her feet. They seemed so delicate yet he knew how important they were. It took all his restraint not to kiss them. There was something on her toes. Only bad girls painted their toes. At least that was what he had been taught. From all he knew of Kessa, she wasn’t a ‘bad girl’. The sight of the paint thrilled him even more.

When Kol was about 10, his dad gave him a ring. Just a plain little ring he had bought from a vendor during one of his many trips. As he grew, the ring went from his thumb to his little finger. At one point, he and his mother had a heated argument that he should throw the ring away. He even woke one night to her trying to take it off his finger. He looked at the ring; then at Kessa’s third toe. ‘It will fit.’ He took it off and yes, it did fit. The fight within him continued not to kiss her foot, each toe. Then a new thought hit him, would she accept his gift? It wasn’t anything extraordinary. Roy added the Bible verse to it beautifully.

When he looked up, she was watching him. The feelings he felt were so familiar. As a child, he often felt like he had been caught doing something bad. “Will you accept my gift?”

“Thank you, my king. If you ever decide you want it back,” she stopped short as he lowered his head to her feet.

Her toes could have easily wiggled through his hair. “How much trouble would I get in if I wiggled my toes through your hair?”

His voice shattered when he spoke, “more than I can bare. My gift is freely given.”

“Freely accepted.”