Light box

A long time ago, the office I worked in had a light table. I never had an occasion to use the light table as it was meant to be used. It was more of a table. An extra desk. As I’ve gotten more and more into art and drawing; there have been times a light table would so come in handy. As I was shopping at 5 Below the other day, I found this.

Yes, this is for a child. The idea is the same.

Surprise! It didn’t come with batteries.

Lucky for me, I had batteries. It did come with 2 art sheets.

Cover with a sheet of tracing paper and get busy. 🎉

Thank you Santa. 🎁

Lost Past; A Star Trek Story

Paramount Global owns the Star Trek franchise. This is a piece of fan fiction based on Star Trek the Next Generation.

The wedding

     Picard was sitting at his desk, when his door chimed. “Come.” It was Counselor Troi; she was carrying a picture and a recorder.

     “I have asked Data to join us.”

     “Very well.” The door chimed again. “Come.” Data entered. “Report.”

     They sat down. “Data found this picture on the Jormungand.” She handed the picture to Picard. “It is of a Betazoid wedding.”

     “What relevance does this hold?” Picard asked. 

       Data spoke, “I have been unable to determine a reason behind the hesitance I feel around Counselor Troi. From my personal experience, I have no reason not to trust her. Sher does not appreciate the presence of a Betazoid.”

     “Is that where the ‘Beta leak’ comment stems from?” Picard asked.

     “I can only hypothesize.”

     “Data gave me the picture to see if I could find out who was in it. This is amazing. If I am right, that picture is 300 years old. The groom in the picture is Ambassador HiTzola. He was known as the greatest ambassador of his time. He settled the bitter war between Sar and the Hun, a war that had lasted 150 years. The Hun home world was ravaged. Both populations were decimated. At the height of this war there was 100,000 Huns and 98,897 Sars. Ambassador HiTzola was hailed as a hero for bringing an end to the destruction. The bride is Lady Corbon. Thought to be the luckiest lady of her time because she married the Ambassador. The story goes that they met during her stay on Sar. It never says where she is from. The stories say that her beauty was compared only with her intelligence. That she was the backbone of his triumph. After five years of marriage, she became pregnant. He was furious (at first) with the thought of her having a child. Again, the story doesn’t say why.”

     “At first.” Picard asked.

     “Deeper into the pregnancy, he fell into a deep depression. She lived with her friends in Erra, a small village on the opposite side of the planet from him. I have never heard of this city. It never says where he lived. It does say that if anyone would come around him, he would go into fits of hysteria until they left.” 

     Data interrupted her, “does it ever say who the friends are?”

     “No, this story is full of holes. The theory that the story sticks with as to why he went mad was that he lost his telepathic abilities when she became pregnant.”

     “I wonder if the union was forbidden?” Data asked.

     “It never says. After the baby was born, Corbon dies. There is no reason why. It doesn’t say if the baby lives or not. It does go on to say that the day the baby was born HiTzola dies. The story says that when the baby drew its first breath, he drew his last.”

There was silence for a moment. 

     Picard leaned back in his chair, “that’s it?”

     “That’s it.”

     “In a Beta wedding, when the party lines up to take a picture, do they line up the same as in an Earth wedding?” Picard asked.

     “You mean the bride, the maid of honor, then the brides maids?”

     “Yes.”

     “Yes.” Deanna answered. 

     “Data, who is standing next to Corbon?” Picard handed the picture to him.

     “Sher.”

     “Do you think it is possible for Sher to have been one of the friends in Erra?”

     “Anything is possible sir.”

     “Other telepaths can read your thoughts can’t they?” Picard asked Deanna.

     “If they want to.”

     “Interesting.” Picard scratched his head. “This needs further investigation.”

     “Agreed,” Deanna exclaimed. “This story needs to be completed.”

      “Are we sure?” Data asked.

     “What do you mean?”

     “In order to answer one question, that’s important now. Do we uncover a piece of the past that should remain uncovered?”

     “I would like to know why someone have never met would feel animosity toward me. And why this person has extended that animosity to someone I thought was my friend.”

 

     Data never said a word. He just stared at her. “I do not harbor animosity towards you.”

     “Maybe not to the extent she does.”

      “Search on.” Picard ordered.

Coreopsis 6-e

   “You were right in your assumption,” she spoke louder so he could hear her. 

   “Never?”

   “No.”

   “I envy you.” He drew a sharp breath as the cold water caressed his face. 

   “You know nothing about my personal life, don’t envy me.”

   “You have freedom.” He reached out and touched her face. “Freedom to choose a mate that will be good to you and love you.”

   “Your wife doesn’t love you?”

   “Nor I her.”

   “That must make for an interesting relationship?” She tried to keep the pace of the conversation as quick as she could.

   “There is something about you; I don’t know what it is.” He gazed at her for a moment. “I feel like you can see right through me. As if you can see my secrets and my deepest fears; as if I am transparent.” He closed his eyes. “What do you see?”

     Orion didn’t know how right he was. 

   She shook off all the thoughts rolling through her mind. “Shall I tell the Prince what he wants to hear or shall I be honest with the man?”

   His voice was almost a whisper when he answered her. “Be honest with me. I feel not enough people are honest with me.” His clothes were covered with sweat. 

   She closed her eyes, “your son is your only source of joy.” She saw him reading to his son at different stages of life. In the blink of an eye, she saw them lying together asleep on a couch, his son wrapped in his arms. “Your sister is your sanctuary.” She saw him lying in his sister’s room. She saw them talking as they walked through a garden. She wouldn’t tell him the other things she saw. “Outwardly you’re a corpse. Bones wrapped in flesh. Your eyes are dark. They are lifeless and empty. You have wondered why you haven’t died. You wish death to end your physical pain but it never comes.”

   His blood ran cold as she talked. How did she know all of this?

   “I have never met anyone like you. You are different. I find it easy to be around you.”

   “I was beginning to think you couldn’t engage in a conversation.” She smiled.

   “There you go being a tease again.” He gagged. She helped him raise up. His breathing was rapid and shallow. She held him up until her arm gave out. Once he was able to lay back down on the couch, he faded to sleep.

  When she had gathered her wits about her, she got up collecting a suit case from the closet where the porter put her bags. When she emerged from the bathroom, she had on lime green pajama’s and matching socks. 

   “Someone noticed my matching socks, look at you.” He ribbed. 

   “I just find it odd when a man matches. Usually they just put on whatever is in the floor. Well, the men in my life pick up whatever is in the floor.” She shivered, “is there no hot water on this train?” 

   He smiled, “Luke warm at best.”

   She plunked her suitcase back in the closet, quickly folding her arms across her chest; then placed her hands under her arms. “Oh my Sweet Jesus.”

   “Lay down.” He instructed calmly.

   She sat there a moment just shivering. He got up, kneeling she thought, but in reality falling in front of her. She slowly lay down. He opened a compartment under her seat. It was full of pillows and blankets. Gently, he lifted her head placing it back down on a pillow.

   “Do you want to dry your hair?”   

   “I never do. I don’t even own a hair dryer.” She chattered.

   He then took out a blanket wrapping her in it. He even tucked it under her feet.

   “I don’t think I can survive another shower like that.” She closed her eyes, snuggling into the blanket.

   Orion became dizzy. He steadied himself with his hand on the edge of her seat. His lungs began to burn with a different ache. “What kind of perfume are you wearing?”

   “Why?” His question caught her off guard.

   His breath jammed in his chest. All he could feel was his heart pound in his ears. His senses were flooded with her smell. 

   “Please don’t wear it any more.”

   “That’s all I brought.” She opened her eyes. His back was toward her now. She watched his head weave on top of his neck. 

    “I’ll buy you some at the next stop.”

    “Is it that bad?” She giggled. 

   He covered his mouth with his hand to conceal his rapid breathing. She was afraid he was going to be sick again. “Quite to the contrary.” He crawled on his hands and knees over to his seat, stretching out with his back to her. 

   Okay, she thought. That’s never happened to me before. She shrugged it off, drifting into sleep as she became warm.  

 

My last weight loss journey: here we go again

Growing up, my dad suffered with horrible acid reflux. He called it the ‘strong neck’ or ‘sour neck’. The 2 were interchangeable.

Many years ago I went to the doctor and had a barium swallow performed. I was in my early 30’s? Scared and stupid. Had to drink this chalky white stuff, got strapped to a table and moved around like a pour art painting. 

A barium swallow is an X-ray imaging test using a chalky barium drink to coat and highlight the throat (pharynx) and esophagus, allowing doctors to diagnose issues like difficulty swallowing (dysphagia), reflux (GERD), ulcers, blockages, tumors, or muscle disorders in the upper gastrointestinal (GI) tract using fluoroscopy (moving X-rays). Patients drink barium, and radiologists watch it move, taking X-rays to see the structure and function of the upper GI tract. *Google Overview 

When it was over, the doctor tossed a pamphlet at me about GERDS and left. I guess my suffering wasn’t high class enough for him? Or I was intrupting his lunch break? In my 30 something head, I told myself if this wasn’t important enough for a doctor, then I was making too big a deal out of it. 

As I get farther into my 50’s, I’ve learned that your health is only important to you. And your family, if you are fortunate enough to have a family that gives a damn. 

If you read my blog often, I’ve been adding more protein to my diet. There is a history of diabetes in my family tree. High carbohydrate foods are not really the best foods to combat diabetes. 

Well guess who’s showed up for dinner?

This makes twice in 4 years that I have had a prolonged period of acid reflux. 

I get so discouraged sometimes. It seems like I get one thing going only to have something else show up. 

Here is an overviews for you to enjoy. 

Foods to Enjoy (Triggers to Avoid/Limit) 

  • Grains: Oatmeal, brown rice, whole-grain bread, quinoa. 
  • Proteins: Skinless chicken, turkey, fish, tofu, beans, lentils, egg whites. 
  • Vegetables: Green veggies, root veggies (carrots, sweet potatoes), celery, cucumber, lettuce. 
  • Fruits: Bananas, melons, apples, pears, berries (non-citrus). 
  • Dairy: Skim milk, low-fat yogurt, low-fat cheeses (in moderation). 
  • Fats (Healthy): Avocados, nuts, seeds, olive oil, fatty fish (in small amounts). 

Foods & Drinks to Avoid 

  • High-Fat Foods: Fried foods, fatty meats (sausage, bacon, high-fat beef). 
  • Acidic Foods: Tomatoes, citrus fruits, tomato-based sauces. 
  • Irritants: Chocolate, mint, onions, garlic, spicy foods. 
  • Beverages: Coffee (caffeinated & decaf), alcohol, carbonated drinks, chocolate milk, orange juice. 

Lifestyle Tips 

Eat smaller meals more frequently, Avoid eating right before bed, Stay upright for a few hours after meals, Chew gum after eating, and Maintain a healthy weight. 

Always consult your doctor for personalized advice, as triggers vary by individual. 

Cottage Cheese Fudge?

Am I kidding? No. And this is really good. My only complaint is that I couldn’t get the cottage cheese creamy enough. My fudge was a little lumpy.

I used a food processor but I think mine might be too small.

1 bag of chocolate chips, melted. I melted mine double boiler style. You can melt them in a microwave; just make sure not to cook them.

1 cup of cottage cheese blended until smooth.

Mix together

Pour out on a pan with wax paper.

Refrigerate until set. Slice and eat.

The chase

Big black dog, nipping at my heals.

I know you.

You chase me.

Bite me.

Catch me. 

Smother me.

Your weight is more than I can bare. 

We fight. 

Wrestle.

I run. You chase. 

I hide. You sniff me out.

If I’m inside, you’re outside. 

If I’m outside; you’re inside,

waiting to pounce. 

Big black dog, nipping at my heals.

Can we be friends?

Can you give me peace?

Only when I lose myself where I can’t find me. 

*Doyle used the phrase ‘the black dog’ as a metaphor for depression in his Sherlock stories. Many times Watson refers to Holmes being chased by it. Google says that it was popularized by Winston Churchill. 

idle thoughts — ravensweald

Coreopsis 6-d

   Orion was lying on his side, staring at her. She had the most adorable round face, with a playful little chin.

   “What?” She asked with her nose still buried in her book. When he didn’t answer, she looked up. He was breathing heavily, “Orion?”

   “Nothing,” he thought for a moment. “What color is your hair?”

   “I call it dishwater blonde.”

   “May I see?”

   She looked at him almost confused. But she did take her hair down. To Orion when she shook her head, it was in slow motion. Her hair cascaded down her shoulders resting on her breasts.

   “It’s beautiful.” He panted.

   “Thank you. I don’t like it because it’s not a color.” She ran her fingers through it. “When I look in the mirror I see strands of white, blonde, gold, and light brown.”

   “That is why I like it; it suits you. Hair as complex as the personality wearing it.”

   “What would you know about the complexity of my personality?”

  He moaned, “Based on the women I know. You are the most complex.” 

   “Would you care to explain?” She closed her book staring at him with utmost curiosity both professionally and personally. She put her book on the seat beside of her then went over kneeling in front of Orion. He was sweating profusely. She wiped his face with her hand, “Orion.”

   “My mother is a loyal devoted loving woman.” He panted, “My sister would have been better suited to meet you. She is in it for the now.”

   “Instant gratification?” she got up to get some water from the bathroom.

   He reached for her, “no, don’t.”

   She held his hand as he struggled, “then keep talking to me.”

   “Not instant gratification,” he continued his conversation about his sister. “She’s willing to wait on something’s. I call it the ‘Now Factor’ it’s whatever gives her the quickest greatest amount of pleasure.”

   “Why would she have been better suited to accompany me?”

   “This train makes five stops before we get to our destination. She would have enjoyed the shopping.” He groaned in pain.

   “Then why are you with me?”

   “Honestly. My parents are worried to death. I think they thought it might help me.”

   “I can understand that.” He gripped her hand with amazing strength as he continued to breathe heavily. “What is wrong with shopping?”

   “Nothing, it just isn’t something I enjoy.”

   “You don’t strike me as a man’s man?”

   “Why is that such a bad thing?” He hissed.

   “I never said it was.”

   There was a long period of silence; he was trying to breathe; trying to keep some of his self-composure. “The other woman in my life is my wife. She’s just, for lack of a better word, cruel.”

   “I thought you said you ‘was’ married once? I took that the mean that you used to be married.”

   “I did.” 

   Sarah could see that keeping him talking was actually helping him through this. She was confused as to how to keep it rolling. She wanted to call him a big freak and a weirdo but she didn’t. Instead she asked, “Then why marry her?”

   “I didn’t”, he gagged, “have a choice.”

   “Dr. Carter asked me if I would come to visit him. He told me he worked for the House of Morian. Am I to assume you are the Crown Prince? With the people that I’ve met on this adventure calling you Lord and sir”

   “I am.” His chest was on fire. His lungs burned and his ribs ached.

   “I’ve read reports that you are ill. It always did amaze me that the press makes so light of it. And Jack is an excellent doctor, for him not to be able to help you is dumbfounding.”

  “Why are you here?”

   “Jack only told me he needed some advice.”

   “Jack?” He scoffed. “He has worked at the palace for 12 years; I never knew his first name was Jack.” He gagged, “Oh dear God make it stop.”

    “You really should let me go so I can go to the bathroom. Water and a towel would be really helpful right now. Or I can call the porter.”

     “Keep talking to me.”

  He squeezed out, “are you married? You never did answer me.”

Pour art 2

I did another pour art project and I hated it.

Used the same method as I did with the first one. After the pour, it looked horrible. Didn’t take a picture of that. This picture was of my first clean up attempt.
2nd clean up attempt. Still not great.
Did a new pour over the old one and didn’t like it either. Took two fat q-tips, placed one on either side of my index finger and did wild arm movements mimicking brush strokes. The paint was really thick and I ended up with depressions in the paint. This one I kept. Liked it much better.

Coreopsis 6-c

   Sarah studied Orion’s face as he stared at his glass of wine. He didn’t look happy at all. There were no little laugh lines around his mouth or eyes. The flesh around his eyes looked dark and sunk in. He reminded her of a sack of bones. Every time he moved it seemed to pain him. 

     He looked up at her. “What?”

   She shook her head, “Nothing. Sorry.”

   Even his eyes were lifeless and dull. 

   The waiter entered with their soup.

   “This smells wonderful.” She purred.

   “Thank you,” replied the waiter. “I will extend your compliment.”

   Orion took three spoonfuls of the soup. He didn’t touch the bread, and only sipped at the wine.

   “Not hungry, my lord?”

   “Please, don’t.” He sighed, “My name is Orion.” 

   “As you wish.”

   “No, I’m not.” He sat back in his chair. The waiter removed his bowl. Orion looked across the table at Sarah. “Do not hurry because of me.”

   “I won’t because this is really good.” She wiggled in her chair. 

   He smiled almost laughing.

   “He can smile.” She teased.

   After dinner, he escorted her back to the sleeping room of the train car. He took off his white coat exposing a white tee shirt underneath. He hung the coat in the closet where the porter stored her bags. He then kicked off his shoes side by side as if he had bent over and placed them there. 

   “White socks,” she remarked.

   “I was in a white mood this morning.”

   “I see.”

   He turned, walking back to his respective seat. A groan escaped him as he clutched his abdomen. 

    She watched him, “are you okay?”

   He leaned over his lap. She sat down beside of him rubbing his back. She could feel all of the vertebrae along his spine. It amazed her that he was able to stand upright.

   “It will pass.” 

   “Is there anything you need me to do?”

   “No, I will be fine.”

   She got up, returning to her seat. He stretched out, falling asleep. At some point he opened his eyes. She was still fighting with her book, but had gotten a pen and was making notes as she read.

   “Feeling better?”

   He sat up. “Food makes me sick.”

   She placed her pen inside the book, closing it. “That isn’t natural. Our bodies are designed to use food. Does all food make you sick?”

   “Don’t play doctor on me.”

   “As you wish,” she opened her book continuing to read.

   He got up disappearing through a door beside the one that lead to the dining room. When he returned, he said, “That is the bathroom.”

   “Thank you, I am sure that will come in handy.” She didn’t look up from her book.

   “I’m sorry. I had no right to snap at you. I will not let our resident doctor near me.”

   “Afraid of doctors?”

   “When I first became ill, no one could diagnose me so I gave up.” He stretched back out on the seat.

   She looked up from her book. “You don’t make noise when you sleep.”

   “What does that mean?”

   “Just an observation; I’ve never met anyone like you. You lay down and that’s it.”

   He rolled onto his side to face her. “What noises do you make?”

   “I moan and groan; so much so that you might want to get another car. I toss and turn. I have horrible allergies sometimes so much so that I can’t breathe and I wake myself up snoring. Most mornings I wake up more exhausted than when I went to bed.” She paused for a moment, “and I have horrible nightmares that makes sleep difficult.”

   “What makes you think I will be the one looking for a new place to sleep?”

   “I’m not uprooting myself to accommodate you. If you don’t like it, leave.” She wiggled her nose.  

   “Do that again.”

   She looked stunned, “what?”

   “Wiggle your nose.” He smiled.

   “Why?”

   “I like it.”

   “I shall not wiggle my nose until it’s time.” She wiggled on the seat.

   “You big tease,” He smiled.

   “So what if I am?” She stiffened up at that comment.

   “Are you married?”

   She scoffed, “what does that have to do with this conversation.”

   He took a deep breath, “no.”

   “What about you?”

   “Once,” He paused running a finger over the white mark on his ring finger. “Do you ever sleep? We’ve been on this train 12 hours. I haven’t even witnessed you yawn.”

   “You have been asleep most of these 12 hours; you would be hard pressed to know when I sleep.” He kept changing the subject on her so she thought she would point out his obvious oversights.

   He just looked at her, anticipating her answer. She noticed that his chest was moving rapidly and that he really wasn’t focused on anything.

   “Not much.”

   “Interesting?”

   “How so?”

   “It’s just interesting. He rolled back over facing the ceiling. She assumed he was asleep. He didn’t move a muscle. She got lost in her book again.