Prayers

     Max sat in the waiting room. No signal on her phone. Great! The five lives of her game had been spent. One by one the people in the waiting room were thinning out. Currently, she looked like the youngest person here. But she knew looks were deceiving. 

     The t.v. was a muted whisper showing those who cared to watch ALL the tragedies in the world. She prayed someone would change the channel. Golf was better than this. 

     A quick glance at her watch, 10:00 am. An hour had crawled away into history. There went her blood pressure. And having to explain, yet again, that she had White Coat Syndrome. Her blood pressure was rock solid until she had to go to the doctor. Why did they make you wait? So, she didn’t make $300.00 an hour, but her time was just as precious to her as the doctors was to him. Just not worth as much money. 

     Once the lives in her game were gone. The t.v. held no interest. The full weight of the super cold room hit her. Why was it so cold? They should give out blankets while you wait. She needed a king sized comforter so it would cover from her ears to her toes. 

     She shifted in her seat. ‘Come on doc, let’s do this’. Maybe if she got up and went to the bathroom, it would make them call her name. It worked in restaurants. Get up to use the bathroom and the waiter would bring your food. 

     She shifted in the chair again. If the doc knew just how sore her butt was getting, he’d call her name. A sigh escaped her as that familiar feeling of ants crawling down her thigh made her shift in her seat again. 

     The little girl in black scrubs made her 50th appearance in a doorway. The area behind the door was bright compared to the drab colors in the waiting room. Clip board in hand. ‘Old school’, Max thought. ‘How old is she 12’? 

     

     “Maxine Wheeler,” she chimed with an honest cheer in her voice. 

     ‘God, you got this’. She prayed, leaning over to retrieving her purse from the floor at her feet. As she stood. ‘Stand’. She instructed her body. ‘Stand.’

Lost Past; A Star Trek Story

Paramount Global owns the Star Trek franchise. This is a piece of fan fiction based on Star Trek the Next Generation.

Open space

    Picard walked over to the two chairs that were up against the control panel. Data was slumped over in one asleep. He turned to his crew, “return to the Enterprise.” They disappeared. He turned back toward Data. “Mr. Data.“

    Data rolled his head over to Picard. “I know. My tone was unbecoming an officer.”

    Picard sat down in the other chair beside of him. “Are you alright?”

    “No. The closer we get to where we are going the worse I am going to get.”

    “Are you sure?”


    “Yes, I am very sure.”


    Picard looked out the window of the Jormungand. “The view from here looks so different than the view from the Enterprise.”

    “This is actual space. If you stand on the hull of the Enterprise, this is what you would see?”

    Picard thought about that for a minute. Actual space. Then he let it go. “Something here is very protective of you.”

    “The Jormungand considers me her father.”

    Picard was amazed, “how?”

    “I helped create her. Follow me.” Picard followed Data through a maze of corridors ending up in the library.

    Picard saw the painting on the wall. “What an amazing creature.” He marveled. “Who is she?”

    Data looked at her for a moment. He was so sad, to the point it hurt Picard to look at him. “Scheherezade.”

    “Scheherezade.” Picard gasped. 

“Scheherezade was a character in a story.”

    “I am aware of that sir. ‘The Arabian Nights’ by Sir Richard Burton, it was written in 1850. I know it well.” He walked over to the panel in the wall to the secret room. “This is what I wanted you to see.” 

    Picard followed him to the room full of drawings. Data pulled out a drawer. “You did these?”

    “Apparently. You may stay as long as you like.” Data left the room. 

 

I need to get-

I need to get up. 

Really don’t want to. 

Need to wash my cup.

Need to do my chores, make it through.

~

Thankful for the dishes to wash. 

Thankful for the laundry.

Not trying to be bosh.

My mind and body are in a quandary.

~

I need to get up. 

Really don’t want to. 

Sitting here, cuddled with my pup. 

Moving would make him so blue. 

~

Thankful for the cuddle time. 

Need to make my bed.

Thankful for a home to call mine. 

Thankful for food that keeps us fed. 

~

I need to get up. 

Really don’t want to. 

My mind and body are in a quandary, yup. 

It Saturday, there’s no hurry. Yes, that’s true. 

God’s House

Psalm 132:3-5 ESV

3  “I will not enter my house
    or get into my bed, 4 I will not give sleep       

    to my eyes or slumber to my eyelids, 5      

    until I find a place for the Lord, a dwelling 

     place for the Mighty One of Jacob.”

Daniel parked his car behind the church. A well dressed lady came out of a side building shaking her finger at him, “you can’t park here. This is for church personnel only.” She puffed out her chest as she spoke. 

“I’m the new secretary,” Daniel sputtered. Fumbling in his pocket to retrieve his key. 

She eyed him up and down. Then did the same to his car. He was suddenly embarrassed by his thrift store clothes and 13 year old car. He wanted to puke.

With unsteady nerves, he swiped the card. It produced a sweet jingle. The lock popped. When he opened the door, a man dressed in black dress pants and a crisp dress shirt stood in his way. “I see Beatrice got you.”

“Sir?” Daniel gulped. 

“I’m the pastor.” He didn’t extend his hand to Daniel or offer him a hand shake. He turned and Daniel followed him. “The group of men you met yesterday have decided we need to move into the digital age with our record keeping. The rest of the church has. So after you get the bulletin ready, that will be part of your ‘other duties as assigned’. You will be provided top notch equipment, so don’t stress that.” He walked away. 

On his lunch break, Daniel walked the compound and found a nice shade tree to sit under to eat his lunch. The days it rained, he spent more time exploring the grounds. He found an athletic center. Playground. And a building he later discovered was an event hall. All surrounded by a 6 foot high wrought iron fence. 

This fence bothered him. He thought all people should be allowed in God’s house. He discovered that only tithing members of the church could use these facilities. As he ‘brought the record keeping into the digital age’, he discovered that they really did keep track of how much each member tithed. And they had a membership tier based on your tithing. The more money you tithed, the more things you got to do inside the compound. They even had a daycare. ‘For members only’.

Sunday, Daniel followed a line of people to what he thought were public bathrooms. Well, yes. But there were 5 ATM machines lining a wall. Each with a person swiping away. One of the six men Daniel met on his first day, was standing behind them, holding a golden tray, smiling and nodding as each person put money (cash) in the tray. “Thank you.” Smile and nod. “Thank you.” Smile and nod. “Thank you.” Smile and nod. 

After the service, all the men made a procession line across the sanctuary from the back to the front. When they had made it to the lobby, the pastor walked inside and somehow Daniel instinctively knew to lock the door behind him. ‘Keep the rif raf out’. 

The pastor drowned both hands with hand sanitizer then rubbed his cheeks and neck. The row of men just laughed. 

“Come on boy.” The preacher swaggered back through the sanctuary, out to the parking lot, followed by the group of men. A line of brand new, shiny, vehicles were parked in a nice row. 4 of the vehicles had women dressed to kill standing in front of them. These men, including the pastor, had to be all over 50. None of these women were. Each man got a kiss. Each man held the door open. And in unison, they drove away. “You can ride with me boy.”

The pastor’s truck was the biggest thing Daniel had ever saw. He was awestruck by it. The inside was all leather. “Someday boy, this could be you.” 

They all met at the finest restaurant in town, were shown to a private room. And the man that originally opened the door for Daniel, paid the bill. In cash. This made him highly uncomfortable. He knew that everything at the church was paid for by tithe money. But this seemed opulent. Wasteful. Everyone left huge plates of food. 

He nervously asked the lady to his right, “would it be rude of me to ask for a to go box?” 

Giggling, she asked, “why?”

“This was magnificent. I’d hate to waste it.”

She only scoffed. 

Learning something new

The other day my fam-ends and I hung out. Ate, went shopping. East Tennessee has stores called Karm. This is what I found on-line about Karm. From KARM Stores; “KARM Stores is East Tennessee’s most popular thrift store, where every donation and purchase makes a real difference. At our 25+ locations, you’ll find a wide variety of quality items, including gently used clothing, furniture, home décor, electronics, books, and much more! Whether you’re shopping or donating, you’re a part of our mission to make a lasting impact. We support Knox Area Rescue Ministries with 100% of our profits, helping to break the cycle of homelessness in our community. Your support funds vital, life-changing programs that empower individuals to achieve sustainable living and experience a restored life in Christ.”

While shopping, I saw this thing but passed over it. Some electronic thing in a box. However, my bestie pulled it to my attention.  It was an XP-Pen Deco 01 drawing tablet. When I decided, yeah I’ll get it. The check out line exploded and I almost didn’t buy it. My fam-ends were willing to wait, so I got it. 

After getting it home, I discovered there were some things missing but nothing that would stop the end user (me) from using it. As I get more comfortable with it, I might order those missing items. 

Right off the bat, I did have to purchase an adapter. However, I will use this adapter for more than the tablet. 

Because I’m not ready to spend more money on this, I downloaded Krita. After I got everything synced, this is my attempt at drawing my initials.

I’m not going to be rocking digital art anytime soon. 

Now I get to learn more thing. 

Thanks bestie. 💕

Lost Past; A Star Trek Story

Paramount Global owns the Star Trek franchise. This is a piece of fan fiction based on Star Trek the Next Generation.

You are not friend

    “Data we want to go to the Luminaria.” Wil ordered.

    It was obvious that Data was not happy with that thought but he entered the coordinates into the transporter station. Everyone got on the transporter pad except Data. “You are going with us.” Wil ordered.

    Data glared at him, “great.”

    The little ensign behind the podium was shocked. So many of the commanding officers had never been in the transporter room at one time during his watch. Data climbed onto the pad. “Energize.” Picard ordered. 

    “Yes sir.” Came a weak reply.

    Soon they materialized in the corridor to the Luminaria. “What was that little display about?” Wil snapped.

    “I have no desire to be here.” Data answered.

    They all entered the room. “Okay,” Picard asked. “What is this?”

    “It is a Luminaria. It takes light waves and generates images of thought.” Data answered.

    “That could be very personal.” Beverly remarked.

    “You have no idea how.” Data almost snarled.

    “Data you did a marvelous job playing tonight.” Deanna smiled.

    “Thank you.”

    “How do you feel?”

    “I want to go to bed. I am tired.”

    “How does this thing work?” Picard asked.

    “Sit down sir.” Data answered.

    Picard did. The room filled with light, images started to appear on the walls. It was the vineyard in the small French village where Picard grew up. He and Robert were wrestling in the mud. Marie caught them and what started out as a fight ended up in laughter. The Picard brothers ended twenty ears of bitterness during that fight. Picard had mixed emotions about this memory. The next image that appeared was of him and Beverly when they were trapped on Kesprytt. Picard got up. “I take it the rest of you have tried this?”

    “No,” Data responded. “Only you and I, sir.”

    “Geordi.” Wil promptly reminded him.

    “Geordi isn’t here.” Data turned and walked out of the room.

    “Data,” Deanna called after him. She looked at Wil with concern. “Another contraction. Data!”

    “And you say he’s not schizophrenic.” Will offered.

    They all rushed after him. By the time they were in the corridor, he had disappeared. 

    “Where did he go?” Beverly asked.

    “Where did he go George? Huh! Where did he go?” Came a childlike voice.

    “I have zero patience for games.” Picard snapped.

    “Then you will get zero help finding Mr. Data.” The Jormungand’s voiced turned back to its feminine adult tone.

    “We are sorry.” Beverly answered. “What do you want?”

    “You are not truly friends of Data’s.”

    “What would make you say that?” Deanna asked.

   “He doesn’t want to be over here, yet you made him come anyway.” 

    “We are trying to get to the bottom of what is bothering him.” Picard answered. “Sometimes we do things that are distasteful. But they have to be faced.”

    “Picard, Jean-Luc – captain, your service record is impeccable.”

    He looked around, “thank you.”

    “Is Data alright.” Beverly asked.

    “Crusher, Beverly – doctor. Data is fine.”

    “Then where is he?” Deanna asked.

    “Troi, Deanna – counselor.” There was a pause. “Ewe Beta.”

    “What is wrong with me being a Betazoid?”

    “Half Betazoid. Your father was an honest man.”

    “What do you know about my dad?”

    “More than you.”

    “That’s enough!” Wil shouted.

    “Riker, William Thomas – commander; hot head with a healthy libido.”

    “Right.” He hissed. “Are we finished with the 20 observations?”

    There was silence.

    “Nice Wil.” Beverly remarked.

    They found themselves on the bridge. “Okay.” Deanna sighed.

God’s House

2 Samuel 7:1 “…….Look, I’m living in a house made of cedar, while the ark of God remains in the tent.” ESV

Daniel stood staring at the big church building. It was the most opulent building in town. Outshining the court house, library and The Brewer Mansion. This had to be the most impressive modern honor to God ever built. 

His hands started shaking. A rustling noise reminded him of the newspaper he was holding. Church secretary. Okay, he didn’t go to school; 4 years of seminary to be a secretary. But if it got him in the door; got him closer to his true calling; he’d take it. 

One of the visibly heavy front double doors opened with ease. An older man with silver hair smiled. “Daniel?”

It took a moment for him to connect the dots that this man of God was speaking directly to him. “Yes,” he shook off his nerves. “Yes.”

The man laughed, “come in.”

Daniel was hit with cool air; a sharp contrast to the hot humid air outside. His nose was flooded with sweet smells. The inside was every bit as ornate as the outside. There were 6 men he could see, smiling, laughing and having a great time. He jumped as the heavy door was locked behind him. “Gotta keep the rif raf out.”

The laughter started all over. 

“Tell us why you want this job?” One man boomed over the laughter. All the men were dressed in khakis and a polo shirt with what Daniel guessed was the church logo. 

He couldn’t afford to blow this. At the same time, an uneasiness crept through his body. The laughter was gone and 6 pairs of steely eyes stared at him. 

Dry mouthed, he answered, “honestly sirs, I want my foot in the door. I think this job will give me valuable experience that will allow me to fulfill my ultimate goal of becoming a pastor.”

Another man scoffed, “your resume is lack luster.”

Daniel felt heat rise to his cheeks, “yes sirs. This will be my first real job.”

“How was seminary?” Another man asked.

“I grew up in church. My mom taught Sunday school classes. Seminary taught me how little I actually knew about the Bible.”

The oldest man drawled, “not from ‘round hur?” It was all Daniel could do not to smile. It struck him that this was the most honest thing he had encountered in a long time. Four little words spoken with a heavy cornbread accent. Country got a side eye from the man that had opened the door for Daniel. 

“No sir, I’m not.”

They marched Daniel through the sanctuary. Past rows of mahogany pews. And what seemed like acres of flowers in full bloom. That was the smell that he smelt. Flowers. Daniel had never seen so many real flowers in bloom; in person. 

The lead man turned a gold colored knob on a door so white Daniel thought it might glow in the dark. He followed him down a hallway to a small office lined with file cabinets. A small desk was in the center of the room facing the door. They had spent no money on this room. 

One of the men that had yet to speak handed Daniel a card that looked for the world like a credit card. “This is your key card to get in the back door.”

The lead man added, handing him a folder, “these are your duties. Monday – Thursday 8 to 5. Friday 8 to 3. And you will get paid to attend church on Sunday 10:30 to 12:30.”

“Yes, sirs.” Daniel accepted the folder. “Thank you.”

They gave him the grand tour. Most importantly, showed him the kitchen and the bathroom. “See you tomorrow.” They waved him off. 

Being Human

I have been watching a BBC tv show called “Being Human”. The following quote is from episode 4 season 1: “You can piss your whole life away, trying out who you might be. It’s when you’ve worked out who you are that you can really start to live.”

Can I get an AMEN?!

Apply this to your life. When we are children, we grow up in our parents environment. When we move out, many teens/young adults struggle with figuring out who they are. They “experiment”. That’s the buzz word, right? It seems like we really don’t start to figure out who we are ‘really are’ until our late 40’s early 50’s. I know this can vary by person/personality. 

I have always been envious of people who knew from the time they were children that they wanted to be a doctor, lawyer, or cop. I’ve never had such ambitions. Or have I?

I’ve watched/read stories about women who have had complete melt downs because of menopause; loosing their ability to have children. Their identity is being a mom. Likewise with men who are having erectile disfunction, that is how they identify being a man. 

What is your identity? Can you stand with your feet firmly planted on the ground and say (fill in your answer here); I am a Christian. I am a sinner saved by grace. I am a woman. You might be a man. I am …….? 

Lost Past; A Star Trek Story

Paramount Global owns the Star Trek franchise. This is a piece of fan fiction based on Star Trek the Next Generation.

The rehearsal

 Jean-Luc and Beverly walked down the corridor. She was the first to speak, “Jean-Luc?”

    He interrupted her, “Beverly?”

    They looked at each other blushing like school children. “What do you think about that little display?” she asked.

    The door to his quarters slid open. He motioned for her to enter. After the door slid closed behind them, he spoke. “I wonder if that was how Romeo felt?


    “What do you mean?”

    “Can I get you anything?”

    “No, I’m fine.” She said as she sat on the couch.

    His door chimed, “come.”

    It was Deanna and Wil. Deanna looked around and saw Beverly, “are we interrupting?”

    “No, not at all.” Beverly answered. 

    Deanna and Wil joined Beverly on the couch. Picard sat in a chair close to Beverly. “We were trying to figure out what happened in there?” He commented.

    “As were we.” Wil offered. For 5 minutes, I was Casanova.” He grinned.

    “A criminal?” Beverly asked.

    “No a lover with wit and charm. I can see me retiring to write my memoirs.”

    “Would you have 12 volumes?” Picard asked.

    “More.” Wil laughed.

    “I can almost envision that.” Picard smiled, “I fancied myself to Romeo.”

    “Romeo?” Deanna asked. “A passionate yet doomed lover?”

    “Yes.” Came his honest reply. “That makes twice Data has done something to invoke strange emotions in us.”

    “Maybe he is just giving us the opportunity to think about things that we should?” Wil inquired.

    “That was by far the best piece of music I have ever heard.” Beverly stopped.

    “What was that thing, for the lack of a better description? That developed in the corner of the room?” Wil asked.

    “You can’t convince me otherwise that it wasn’t the,” Beverly stopped.

    “Essence of a person.” Picard finished her sentence.

    “Exactly.”

    “And did it curtsy at him?” Deanna asked.

    “I thought it did.” Beverly remarked. “It was as if it was in the room already.”

    “Invisible. But his playing made it take form.” Wil added.

    “You don’t think that could have been inside Data and his playing brought it out?” Beverly frowned.

    Deanna analyzed, “I think that would have made his behavior more complex than that it has been. If that would have been the case, he would have acted schizophrenic.” 

    “You don’t think Data has been acting like two different people?” Picard asked.

    “No, I think he has been acting like a person who is confused, desperate.

    “Do you think he is acting out events that have happened in his past?” Picard asked.

    “No, I think he is remembering events in the past during those periods of turmoil. I still stick to my hypothesis that someone or something is communicating with him.” Deanna spoke. 

    “The formation in the corner could have been an attempted reconstruction of whomever is communicatingwith him,” Beverly interjected.

    “Do you think that is her ship?” Wil pointed out the window.

    “Her?” Picard questioned.

    “In my head, that outline was of a woman.”

    “And on the Jormungand in the Luminaria we saw part of a conversation Data was having with a woman.” Deanna remembered.

    “She had harsh things to say about Admiral Westerfield.” Wil added. 

    “He wasn’t invited to this rehearsal.”

    “Could it have been her?”

    “She would have to be a powerful being in order for that to happen.” 

    “Powerful, perhaps in trouble?” 

    “That is an interesting theory.” Picard voiced.

    “She said lots of things that I have questions about. She said she was a Goodwill Ambassador. I’ve tried to research Good Wil Ambassadors but there isn’t anything in our database.” Beverly hissed.

    “She also felt that Westerfield deployed her without proper authorization from the president.” Deanna commented.

    “None of this was in your reports.” Picard snapped.

    Deanna looked at Wil. “We are having a hard time writing a report. The things we want to say just don’t sound right. They don’t make any sense.”

    “If they don’t make sense to us, how are they going to make sense to you” Wil added.

    “What is a Luminaria?” Picard asked.

    “You have to see this thing?” Wil answered. He tapped his communicator. “Data, meet me in Transporter room 2.” He turned back to the group. “Let’s move our meeting.” The four friends moved to transporter room 2 where Data was waiting.