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Cassandra Morgan
After their company left, Dillon and Evie went in the house. Dillon sank into the couch.
“Your head hurtin’?”
Evie sat down beside of him. She sat down with her back against the couch arm, draping her legs across his lap. He trailed his finger tips over her smooth thighs. “A little.” He finally answered.
“I’m being really really nosy here, why does Cassandra hate you?”
He thought about how he was going to answer this. No matter what he said, it wasn’t gonna put him in a good light.
“Too close to the vest?” Evie smiled.
He focused on his fingers as they glided over her skin. “I was young, stupid and it was a mistake.” He paused, “before I became sheriff and she became Sunshine Sue, we dated on and off for a while. It didn’t end well. It was heated and got ugly in a hurry.” He gave a nervous smile. “Not my finest moment in life. She’s married now. They have a family but she still hates me.” Evie kept quiet. “Lookin’ back on it. I used her. I knew she had a crush on me in high school. Not my finest moment.”
“But you see that now. Is there anyway past it?” He didn’t speak. “If she’s married,” Evie paused. “If the internet is her livelihood, maybe the animosity is there for show?” Dillon stared at her in disbelief. “At this stage in life, to bolster ratings?”
“I never thought about it like that. Still don’t want to take the chance that those feelin’s are still strong.”
“What are you praying to charge this person with?”
“Right now all we can do is filing a false report. Once the name can be revealed, I want either the state or the county, maybe both to sue to cover the cost of the investigation. It shouldn’t be the taxpayers responsibility to pay for another’s arrogance.”

Sunshine Sue
Deputy Banks, Bradley, Evie, Dillon, and another man Dillon introduced as Edward set on the back porch.
Deputy Banks wrung his hands, “this will not be popular but I think we need to get Sunshine Sue in on this.”
Dillon scoffed.
Edward rolled his eyes.
Evie watched each man’s expression to the comment with interest. “If I may ask, who is Sunshine Sue? I’ve heard the name before.”
“Have you been livin’ under a rock?” Edward snapped.
She smiled a mischievous smile, “a closet.”
Bradley spoke, “Sunshine Sue is on every social platform she can be on. Has thousands if not millions of followers.”
“Busy body,” Edward scoffed.
“She might be the right kind of busy body we need,” Banks offered.
“Is her name really Sue?” Evie asked, “that’s just too clever.”
“No,” Dillon offered. She noticed him touching the table. He would touch it. Think for a second or to, raise his finger, then touch the table again.
“We need this person to get so pissed, they come out.” Banks remarked.
“She is definitely the right person to inflame any situation.” Edward smirked.
“She hates me,” Dillon was still frequently touching the table.
“She hates you?” Evie asked.
“Cassandra,” Dillon blurted out with his finger touching the table.
“Cassandra Morgan?” Evie asked. “From school?”
“Yes.” Dillon answered her.
Bradley spoke, “hate might be too harsh.”
“No,” Dillon softly shook his head.
“Why?” Edward asked. “I always knew there was some animosity between her and the sheriffs office.”
“We may need to burry the hatchet.” Banks spoke. “We just might need her.”
“Let me get this straight,” Evie put a hand on Dillon’s shoulder. “You want Sunshine Sue to poke the bear? You know who this person is?” Evie asked with surprise.
“Yes. But we have to get something that will stand up in court.” Edward frowned.
Dillon almost said something but thought better of it. He glanced at Evie. “I have an idea to poke the bear. Bradley, do you have your note pad?” Bradley handed it over with a pen. Dillon scribbled on it. Before handing it back. “Someone anonymously send her a copy of the council minutes from this month.” He pointed at the pad.
Banks asked, “Will she be able to figure out what we want her to see or do we need to highlight part of it?”
“Highlights might be misconstrued as leading,” Edward hissed. “I can’t believe we are doing this.”
Bradley hung around until everyone had left. “I owe you an apology. I shouldn’t have come and got you. I should have just written up my report for you to read.”
Dillon extended his hand for a hand shake. “It’s all good.”
I wasn’t going to do a Testimony Tuesday today. I was going to let the song I posted speak for me. As I’m listening to more Christian music; to find more songs to speak for me, I found Brandon Lake and Jelly Roll singing Hard Fought Hallelujah. This is my new favorite song.
As for me and my house, my path to Christ has been filled with spikes, valleys, boulders, and pebbles that get stuck in my shoe. You know that feeling when you have on flip flops but you have to take the stupid thing off to get a pebble out. You would think that just by shaking your foot you could get it out? You’d be wrong.
Some of the lyrics: ‘I’ll bring my storm-tossed, torn-sail
Story to tell hallelujah
God, You’ve been patient
God, You’ve been gracious’
There’s days when a praise comes out easy
And days when it takes all the strength I’ve got’.
YES! This is my song. Hard fought hallelujah! Somedays the praise comes easy. Somedays it takes all the strength I’ve got. But YES! God has been patient with me.
I feel like a lot of people look at Christians and maybe even other Christians that Christianity and faith is a walk through Candy Land and we are all sucking on lollipops while the sky is raining Skittles from marshmallow clouds. And Jesus is tossing prayers like a Pezz Dispenser. If this defines your walk with Christ. Great. It doesn’t define mine. Satan is in a constant battle for the Christian soul. Well all of them honestly. We war every day with sin. It is a hard fought hallelujah. God has been gracious! God has been patient while each time I bring my sorry, tear stained soul back to him.
My hard fought hallelujahs are different from yours. And that’s great. My walk to and with Christ is different from yours. And that’s great too.
So there’s a controversy among Christians about this song. My human brain landed on because they cuss. But that’s not the issue. I’ve listed a link to that below as well.
Do you have hard fought hallelujahs? Do you have days that it seems like you are hanging on to your faith by your fingernails? Are there days you feel like Satan has ground you under his shoe? God, You’ve been patient. God, You’ve been gracious.
Faithful whatever I’m feeling or facing.
So I’ll bring my hard-fought, heartfelt,
It is well hallelujahs to God all day long.
Roman’s 3:23 “23 For everyone has sinned; we all fall short of God’s glorious standard.” NLT
If you wish to listen to the song:
The division:
I don’t want to know where you land on this topic. I’m only sharing.
Stir crazy
The cool delight of spring was being beaten back by the heavy heat of summer. Dillon fixed the hole in the fence. Now they were laying out a separate driveway with a fence for Hillbilly Yoga. In the back of his mind, Dillon prayed this wasn’t a waste of time and resources.
Every evening, Bradley was visiting, fillin’ Dillon in on the investigation. In Evie’s presence. The team from Frankfort wasn’t getting in the way. They were running with the new information they had received.
Dillon was pacing like a caged animal. Evie smiled, “my husband please change into some old work clothes.” He did so full of curiosity. After he had changed, she led him to the upper barn where the goats and cows called a dry place and was now home to Hillbilly Yoga. Up to the top of the barn where she had made a plastic cubical with drop cloths, there was all kinds of paint on a stump she was using as a table. And the largest piece of canvas he had ever saw resting on a well used easel. She gave him a pair of rubber gloves and goggles.
As she put on a pair of gloves, straightened her goggles, she filled him in. “We have no objective here. Other than to release stress.” She got a hand full of bright pink paint and threw it on the canvas with all her might. Its splatter hit the bottom corner of the canvas. “Was never good at sports,” she shrugged.
With great reluctance, he got a hand full of black paint. “This feels wrong.”
“All the more reason to do it.” She encouraged. His fist full of paint hit bullseye center in the middle of the canvas. “All that target practice.” She winked. There were squirt bottles full of paint. She put red paint on a paper plate; covered her hands, then punched the canvas like it was a punching bag. “Not too hard, you’ll bust through the canvas.” She gently remarked.
She removed her gloves as she walked behind one of the plastic sheets. The first song that started playing was a heavy metal song from their childhood. Then hard rock. Some hardcore instrumental music Dillon didn’t even know existed. The music fueled his need to get his frustrations out. Get out of his own head. Each song took him to the edge of the madness in his brain. Would let him release, before building him up again.
After about an hour, his arms were starting to burn. The music stopped but he was still going. It took him 10 minutes to realize the music had stopped. He took his gloves off, in true CPR fashion, not getting a drop of paint on his hands, took the goggles off. Evie was sittin’ on one of the stumps watching him catch his breath.
She smiled, “feel better?”
“You are so beautiful.”
She blushed, “thank you.”
“Yes, I do feel better.”
She walked over to him with an artist paint brush, dripping with white paint. “Sign your masterpiece Mr. Pace.”
“Where?” He asked, still catching his breath.
“Any where.” He chose the bottom left hand corner; DJP
“Perhaps this should be part of Hillbilly Yoga.” He sighed.
Chico:
I have had 3 owners.
I was born in a puppy mill.
The dog park is my favorite place.
Me:
I once flashed the audience while on stage.
I have slept in my car at a camp site.
I got to meet John Anderson.

Our day started on a stressful note. The power company decided Saturday morning at 8:30 am was the purr-fect time to clean out the power lines. Who doesn’t like being rolled out of the bed by chain saws? Full throttle sound battles. Dueling chainsaws! Yeah! 125 decibels of gas powered buzzing and whirring vibrating inside your barely awake skull.
We should have left at 10:30 am. That was the plan. But NO! The earth shaking wood chipper blocked the road and wouldn’t move. An hour and a half, the seesaw of sounds tormented not only my aching head but the dogs as well. Buzz! Buzz! Grind! Grind!
Finally, 30 minutes later than planned, we are on the road.
City traffic is always a nightmare. White knuckles, frayed nerves. Aching temples and shaking knees.
Made it safe and sound to the hotel. Deep sigh of relief.
Through the alley to the back entrance of our room. Sitting on a wall, a beautiful orange cat catches my eye. It watches us with feline curiosity. Watches as we ascend the stairs to the room.
A quick survey spell disaster; decaf coffee! Hotel staff only left us decaf coffee. 5 adults and not a drop of caffeine in sight! This must be made right. We decide a quick trip to the front desk will fix this issue. The beautiful orange cat is still sitting on the wall. Still watching. More cats are a little higher up on the wall. Watching.
As we round the corner, coffee in hand, more cats are now on the wall. Perched like statues. Watching. Waiting. The sight of us doesn’t intimidate them. They have no fear. Before completely closing the door behind me, I turn the see all the cats, watching. Tails wagging in unison. Waiting.
Our quiet evening in is interrupted by the desire for food. A rumble in the tummy. I open the door and gasp. A clowder of cats are everywhere. They are sitting on the railing. Sitting by the door. Sitting in between the banister. Sitting on the HVAC unit. Sitting on the window sill of the room to the left of ours. Sitting on the wall. Tails wagging in unison.
The beautiful orange cat is sitting front and center. It meows first. “Meow.” Then other one. “Meow.” The another one. “Meow.” Before along, all the cats are meowing. Wagging their tails in unison. I slowly step backwards, quickly shutting the door behind me. It seems to only amplify their meows.
Scratching! Was that scratching at the door? “Meow!”


Investigation
Dillon and Evie were settin’ on the front steps watching Teka play. Dillon had been as distant as the stars lately. He barely spoke. Ate very little. He always looked like he wanted to cry. Evie wouldn’t push him for details. She knew there were things he couldn’t tell her. The dark circles under his eyes were from lack of sleep. “Are you able to talk about anything?” She asked quietly.
He glared at her with anger in his eyes. Jumped up, pointed an aggressive finger at her, “I’m not one of your damn clients.” Before she could respond, he was gone. She went back inside and hopped on a call with a client.
About the time the thought of dinner crossed her mind, Bradley was knocking at the door. He wasn’t able to contain his excitement. “Have you seen the sheriff? He will not answer my calls. Gotta get ahold of him.”
“I might know where he is.”
They found Dillon workin’ on the break in the fence. “Sheriff!” Bradley shouted before he got out of the truck. “I’ve called you at least 25 times.”
Evie stood in front of her dad’s truck.
Dillon leaned on the post-hole diggers, “here to arrest me.” The words rolled off his tongue with little emotion.
“Arrest!” Evie shouted.
Bradley bounced gettin’ closer to the truck with each word. “You gotta come in. You gotta hear this. I ran from the office to get you. You gotta come now. This can’t wait. You gotta hear this with your own ears.”
Bradley jumped in the middle, like he knew that was his place and they drove straight to town.
Evie sat out front in the waiting area while Dillon and Bradley disappeared. In about 15 minutes Dillon reappeared. He was a shade of red Evie had never seen on a person before. Bradley was maybe 10 steps behind him. Everyone stood watching the men disappeared into the sheriff’s office.
Angry voices could be heard. Dillon walked out of his office, “It’s been suggested that I take some time off and let y’all take care of this. You know I am confident in your abilities and know you will uphold the letter of the law. This will be no different than me takin’ a vacation.” The room erupted in laughter. Dillon blushed. “Thank you.” Different deputies patted Dillon on the back as he walked toward Evie, “Will you take me home?”
“Of course.”
“I’m sorry my love. For a lot of things.” He suggested they stop and get a milkshake before going home. They parked at the farthest bench from the shop. Shakes in hand, they sat on the table part of the bench. “There are a lot of things that are gonna happen that I can’t tell you about.” He took a deep breath. “I’m sorry that I snapped at you and closed you out. I promise to do better.”
“Thank you. I will help you if you will let me.”
“Promise to try.” He gave a weak smile. Lookin’ up, he made sure they were still the only 2 people around. Before scootin’ closer to her. In a whisper he started talkin’, “this job is stressful and consuming.” He smirked. “I’ve let it be. Not only do I have to worry about gettin’ shot.” He stopped. She didn’t say anything to fill in the dead space. “I’ve been investigated more times than I could shake a stick at. Misappropriation of funds, missing evidence, mishandling a prisoner, you name it I’ve been investigated fur it. This is different Evie. This is a career killer. Even if rumors of rumors get out, this could be devastating.” He jumped up and threw his shake into the trees as far as he could. She got up standing beside him. “I’ve been, being,” he corrected; “first; for interfering with a cabinet investigation. Second; I’m,” he choked, “i’m accused of being a pedophile.” Evie’s eyes got as big as quarters. She placed her hand on his arm. “If word gets out that the big dogs from Frankfort are here, I’m finished. There’s not a word of truth to it. People don’t care about the truth.”
“Do you have any ideas?”
“Before today, no. The call went straight to Frankfort.”
“How were you able to work?”
“I’ve been here so long and have a good enough record; that if I stay away from the investigation, they let me work.”
“So, after today?”
He fell onto the seat of the bench. “Dear God, after today.” He hissed, placing his hand over his mouth.
“What can I do?”
“Help me. Help me not take matters into my own hands. I have good deputies. They need to do their jobs. Help me not go crazy while they figure this out. They have the answer to the problem. Now they need to connect the dots.”
EXODUS 4:10, KJV “And Moses said unto the Lord, O my Lord, I am not eloquent, neither heretofore, nor since thou hast spoken unto thy servant: but I am slow of speech, and of a slow tongue.” Much like Moses, I have never been an elegant speaker. I can ever remember the right words to say. To the point someone said to me, “use your words.” Hey, this helped! I say things better in written form than I do verbally.
I know we have had many sermons and Monday School lessons about wealth.
Close friends of mine, we had a conversation about money over the weekend. It left me with questions. And honestly, not feeling really good about the topic. In today’s society, money is a necessary part of living. The world doesn’t run off love. It runs on money. A world where people like Pablo Escobar are idolized. If you’re not sure who he was, “Escobar was arguably the world’s most powerful drug trafficker in the 1980s and early ’90s. Soon after his birth, Escobar’s family—his father was a farmer and his mother a schoolteacher—moved to Envigado, Colombia, a suburb of Medellín. While still a teenager, he began a life of crime.” 1
Some key questions for me; is being wealthy a sin?
Can you be a good person and be rich?
What constitutes wealth?
What constitutes hoarding money?
And finally, what is your attitude toward money?
Is being wealthy a sin?
When we talk about wealth and money, most Christians refer to Mark 10:25, KJV
“It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle, than for a rich man to enter into the kingdom of God.” Or, Matthew 19:16-30, is the story of the rich, young man Jesus told to sell all he had and follow me. These 2 examples; from the same parable, (are the ones I’ve heard most) to condemn the wealthy.
No, being wealthy is not a sin. “A Christian’s life purpose is to seek after, love, and honor God. All he does is for the glory of God. Whether a Christian is wealthy or not is irrelevant when everything he has is committed to God. He’s a manager of whatever resources God deems necessary for his life and purpose, whether many or few.” 2
As with the stories and letters in the Bible, they get thrown around to suit the needs of the thrower. Much like the young man in Matthew, Jesus knew his heart. Jesus knew the answer to the question before he asked it. This man wasn’t willing to part with his station in life. The lifestyle money afforded him. It was about his attitude toward money.
King Solomon may have been the richest person in the Bible. God didn’t punish him because of his wealth. He had asked God for wisdom which he used (a gift from God) to help amass said wealth. He let his wives lead him from God. That’s what got him in trouble . I Kings 11: “3 He had seven hundred wives of royal birth and three hundred concubines, and his wives led him astray. 4 As Solomon grew old, his wives turned his heart after other gods, and his heart was not fully devoted to the Lord his God, as the heart of David his father had been. 5 He followed Ashtoreth the goddess of the Sidonians, and Molek the detestable god of the Ammonites.6 So Solomon did evil in the eyes of the Lord; he did not follow the Lord completely, as David his father had done.”
Lesson question: is all you have devoted to the Lord?
Can you be a good person and be wealthy?
Mark 10:18 “Why do you call me good? No one is good except God alone.” Talk about smacking you in the face. Just when you thought, ‘sure, I’m a good person.’ Hmm, no you’re not. The better answer is perhaps, ‘are you a Godly person’? If we follow this line of thinking, rich or poor, you are not a good person.
Romans 8:28 “And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good,[a] for those who are called according to his purpose.”
Lesson question, are you using your life to honor God?
What constitutes wealth?
From the Old Testament to the New Testament, we see a shift in wealth. The same shift we read about throughout history. Abraham had lots of animals and the people to care for said animals. Gen. 13 “2 Abram had become very wealthy in livestock and in silver and gold.” Historians say that because livestock is mentioned first, it was the most important part of wealth. Much like if you and I listed our assets, we would list the most valued first.
Let’s look at wealth. “The same study also reveals that Americans feel that being wealthy in the U.S. means having an average of $2.5 million, an increase on $2.2 million from 2023 and 2022.” 3 Holy Jack Mackerel! By this standard, I will never be wealthy. Let’s look at this in a different way; do you have a roof over your head? Clothes on your back? A car to drive? Maybe you own a pet. Have a hobby? Or live your life to travel? If you have something someone else doesn’t have, you are wealthy in the eyes of someone else. How about getting killed for your shoes? 4
Are you healthy? In a lot of ways your health constitutes wealth. You can afford to go to the doctor. You can afford medicine. You can afford the proper food. If you get sick tonight, are you in a position to miss up to a weeks worth of work?
Wealth is so much more than the watch you wear. The car you drive. Or the numbers on your bank statement.
Lesson question, in the eyes of a stranger, are you wealthy?
Are you hoarding money?
I don’t know about you, but I’m not swimming in a pool of money. At the same time, I’m putting money away for retirement. And an emergency fund. Is this hoarding as we know it? Or is this smart planning?
The Bible has lots to say about hoarding wealth. None of it good. Matthew 6; 19 “Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust[e] destroy and where thieves break in and steal.”
Perhaps the best example for planning in the Bible is Joseph filling the store houses with grain preparing for the famine. The Lord told him it was coming. He did what the Lord told him to do and millions of lives were saved.
Proverbs 16; “The plans of the heart belong to man, but the answer of the tongue is from the Lord. 2 All the ways of a man are pure in his own eyes, but the Lord weighs the spirit.[a] 3 Commit your work to the Lord, and your plans will be established. 4 The Lord has made everything for its purpose, even the wicked for the day of trouble. 5 Everyone who is arrogant in heart is an abomination to the Lord; be assured, he will not go unpunished. 6 By steadfast love and faithfulness iniquity is atoned for, and by the fear of the Lord one turns away from evil.
7 When a man’s ways please the Lord, he makes even his enemies to be at peace with him. 8 Better is a little with righteousness than great revenues with injustice. 9 The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.
So, is having a retirement plan a sin or does it constitute hoarding wealth. No, planning for the future is smart. As long as God is at the center of your plans. Luke 12: 16-21.
Lesson question, is your future in Gods hands or your own?
Your attitude toward money.
What is your attitude toward money? Is it a tool to help you further the kingdom of God? Or is it all yours?
In Luke, we are told “Then render to Caesar the things that are Caesar’s, and to God the things that are God’s.” 20:25.
Leviticus 27: 32 “And every tithe of herds and flocks, every tenth animal of all that pass under the herdsman’s staff, shall be holy to the Lord.”
Proverbs 3:9 says, “Honor the LORD with your wealth, with the firstfruits of all your crops”
Money and wealth are not sinful in and of themselves. It’s what we humans do with said resources, this is where sin marches in.
Lesson question: does money rule you? Or does God rule it in your life.
Luke 19: 1-10
Here was where my tongue got wrapped around my teeth; the story of “But Zacchaeus stood up and said to the Lord,“Look, Lord! Here and now I give half of my possessions to the poor, and if I have cheated anybody out of anything, I will pay back four times the amount.” 9 Jesus said to him, “Today salvation has come to this house, because this man, too, is a son of Abraham. 10 For the Son of Man came to seek and to save the lost.”
Zacchaeus was a wealthy man. We see where he says to Jesus, “Here and now I give half of my possessions to the poor, and if I have cheated anybody out of anything, I will pay back four times the amount.” Even though he was wealthy, he gave to the poor and made atonement for cheating. Jesus didn’t chastise him for being wealthy, he said, “Today salvation has come to this house, because this man, too, is a son of Abraham.” Zacchaeus was lost. And he knew it. I don’t feel like it was his wealth that made him lost. (I could be wrong.) He accepted Jesus with open arms. Jesus didn’t praise him; (this was my misspoken word) but he didn’t condemn him either.
Money is a powerful tool. It can lead even the strongest Christian down the garden path. Or it can be used to further God’s kingdom.
1: Pablo Escobar | Biography, Death, Hippos, & Facts | Britannica
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